Wednesday, February 26, 2014

betrayed again

that's just the natural way of the human as far as i can tell... i told the office no to working in my room tomorrow and the office manager told jackson they were going to do it anyway and jackson said ok... she lays down like a doormat whenever confronted... i love her, she's my best friend and family, but i wish she would see when she is being taken advantage of or getting dumped on...

it's rained all day and evening and the weather report says rain all night and showers during the day tomorrow... the water splashing up under the wrap they nailed and taped to the wall is seeping into the insulation, staining the drywall (which is anything but dry inside the wall now), and warping the baseboards... and tomorrow they think they can cover all that up with plaster and patches... there is mold growing on the baseboard where it has separated from the wall which is a clear sign that there is mold growing in the wall and jackson will let them cover it up tomorrow...

she knew i had to be at work from 7am the 11pm tomorrow and is either ignorant of the health risks of covering up a mold problem or just doesn't care about my health... or hers or the animals... that sucks... that really really sucks...

like i am going to sleep tonight... tomorrow is going to be a very rough day...

hope i survive...

fuck.

5 comments:

j said...

here i was just stopping by to say hi and see how you are and come to find mold.

and what looks to be an ongoing saga on the part of your apartment complex creating what sounds like a condemned living space for you. Are you getting no response from them at all regarding what is being done, the damage it is causing, the disruption to your life and your work, any kind of rent adjustment, anything?

candoor said...

i should just publish the on-going saga of emails... as of yesterday, the apartment manager finally did enough of an inspection to have to admit that there was water damage... she changed the construction schedule and said the apartment would be finished today... today, the apartment was finished, except for my bedroom...

they might claim to have finished the bedroom, but they did not and the apartment manager may be quite upset with the workers as they either lied to her or she lied to us... i am betting on them lying... they seem to do shoddy work and never get jobs done in the time frames promised...

so i continue living in the living room on the way too soft back breaking couch and i continue to be grumpy and distracted and not wanting to write much (cuz even i get tired of grumpy distracted complaining)...

i told them i would be deducting $200 from the rent this month and if they could not accept that they could start the eviction process and we will end up in court... the apartment manager forwarded my last email to her regional director and she hopes for a response monday... rent will be late after monday, so we shall see if they agree or if i contact bring in a lawyer i know who handles construction claims...

otherwise, work life is challengingly wonderful... one softball league started up again so yay for softball (i miss it and want more)... jackson is still draining me of funds, but i have a much better income than i did last year (anything is an improvement over zero income) so even with car payments i am still increasing savings... and i am dragging my feet about losing weight again, but definitely know time is running out as the body ages... life is fun, everywhere except the apartment... drama is so boring...

and so what's new in your world? :)

j said...

well, much the same. pain, fears about pain, which opens up vulnerabilities, especially with growing older.

it rained though, finally. after long drought. not nearly enough. but still. it rained. and the air is... so many things... after it rains, especially when it hasn't rained in so long.

so glad work is at least good and yay for softball. I hope home becomes more of what home is supposed to feel like which must be especially hard for you because home, even when it isn't in so much turmoil, still it carries around some of its own inbuilt turmoils for you.


candoor said...

ih really, so you've been listening to elton john's made in england too? (i laugh as i tease myself and thank you for your understanding and memory and knowing... it may not change much when someone knows, but it does change something important, the feeling of being alone goes away for a while and that, beyond all else, is still a very good and precious and appreciated and wonderful illusion)...

thanks for that with me :)

yay for rain... and wish the illusion of a painless day finds you somehow...

j said...

i wish many illusions would find me.

reality is supposed to be kinder than illusion (or so someone once said).

I'm not convinced.

But i'm glad i could give you a little comfort with an illusion with my memory of your sharing, even if just for a littlw while. :)

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