keeping up with the time

it just keeps moving past, or perhaps we are moving through it, but it just keeps changing, or at least that is our perception of it... time... did we learn this perception or is it really a constantly changing experience... wonder when that question and others like it will be answered... and whether, when that much more knowledge and awareness is finally a real part of human consciousness, whether we will still be asking god for answers when it finally is... the more we know, the more we know that there is more to know... but the unknown only remains the unknown when we stop asking the right questions and when we stop seeking asnwers in ways we can experience them with sensitivity and awareness we have in the moment of asking... perhaps someday we will understand the universe without needing physical proof of what is and is not... and then, who knows what we will call the energy and all we know... and just as amusing to me, who knows what we will call all we still won't know even then...

today was a reasonably restful day with waves of stress a bit more than usual... highs (food, friends, movies, new friend with possibilities for love for jackson) and lows (bad drivers, minor car damage, friction as i continue to try to pull jackson out of adolescence cuz it undermines her relationships and leaves her feeling helpless and depressed, the aging animals, and a chilly rain that is delaying the apartment renovations that is leaving us in a cluttered limbo way longer than we hoped)... jackson went out with a new friend and enjoyed that and she's out with work friends now and i may or may not be picking her up in a little while... happiness is slowing down more these days, alas, aging is a tough thing to watch (as work has proven lately with one of our family dying this month, though it was sixteen days after being discharged to hospice and not in our care) and another may be going to hospice in the next few weeks and yet another in the hospital in critical condition from the swine (h1n1) flu that became pneumonia) and curious is, well, a cat and doing relatively normal cat things as she becomes more and more comfortable in our home...

and even if we are not caught up yet, i still want to know how you are in case you wondered :)