softball returns

subbed-in as pitcher for a friend's team and after walking the first batter (only walk), i settled down and struck out a couple and gave up just one earned run, fielded well, hit poorly (just one hit, a triple, in three at bats and two rbi and one run scored), coached third during our big seven run inning - pushing runners to take extra bases that causes several errors - it feels good when i coach successfully) and we won 11-3... they were satisfied with my performance... and it was on my favorite fields (two asa umpires, scorekeepers, scoreboards with countdown clocks, more perks), right around the corner from here... wish i could find a permanent spot on a team there... i may head out there more evenings to see the level of play and see if i can meet someone who might need a pitcher...

and when i got home jackson was doing dishes instead of sleeping and she needed to talk and we had a seriously heavy talk and it turned out very well and we feel closer than ever with deeper trust and respect and we hugged a lot and then she went to bed and i am/was still wired from softball and the emotional talk and not eating (or rather, not eating heavy... i had no breakfast, a granola bar for lunch, and carrots and two yogurts for dinner... a few ounces of coffee just before the game to wake up (i was up for 16 hours and am not sleeping more than 6 hours lately) and when i eat lean i am not nearly as sleepy so here we are and continue...

watching the olympics... don't want food cuz i want to drop weight... not hungry either... changing habits, getting serious about losing weight, but the body needs sleep... still more to say...

narf :)