but it's the first of may

and there are other games and really bad tv a shows on and the terminator tv show and the dolls are gone too (dumb fox) and a new laptop to continue exploring and all the lonely people, where do they all belong (cuz we know they come from just about everywhere, after all)...

yeah, so, i napped two hours or so and here i am, awake again, wired (a lottle) in the brain cuz there's a new laptop on my lap and a whole new world to play with... i haven't eaten or slept except for just now and less than an hour wednesday morning since sometime on tuesday, i think... and i didn't eat yesterday or today either (so guess what?... the scale read 197.2 this morning and this evening too, even after a little fliud (water during the day, with vitamins, and soe grapefruit juice before and after work)... maybe i am finally starting to want to feel better than good, hmmmm?... yeah, who'm i asking?...

so why am i awake again?... even the laptop fell asleep... why, cuz it's the first of may, aye?... memories... all alone in the molonlight... sometimes beautiful and then... bittersweet too cuz so many are missed and maybe some are gone, but who would know... the laptop gets so hot so quickly... can't be good for the cpu or video card... probably why it wasn't way high priced, the heat is like a built in suicide pack the laptop makes with the manufacturer... yeah, i know, my mind...

could be i am getting hungry, but for food?... the tv makes all the old comfort foods look so good, food artists, the bane of the american waisteline... and health... but still feeling bloated on the amdominal level even though nothing's gone down the pipe in days... maybe i want exercise... sure, that's a no brainer, but more than anything it's the hunger for interaction, for stimulation. for sharing...

yeah, that's what it's all about, after all...