the internet says go to sleep

if only... but nobody understands, not even jackson and she lives here... happiness understands, but then, dogs are dogs... it is deeper than loneliness (copyright, yeah) as the nights toss restlessly by without a home or a bed or a place to lay my weary head (la la la) and the song said remember what the good book said (feed your head, naturally)... the best drugs are not legal, alas, so i overdose on chocolate once again, washed down by the extra caffeinated sugar overload of a frosty dew, and the world still spins around... one of these days i will attempt another search for another doctor and start the attempt to bring some balance to the body since i've been allowing the blood pressure to go unchecked for quite a few years now and there is all sorts of damage that could be going on according to all the medical books, but then, that's just science, right?... mocking death right up to the end, must be insanity, aye?... i miss sex...

the previous entry not withstanding (cuz it's not size that matters as much as sensitivity and placement, of course), there is a longing to awaken and share brewing somewhere deep inside (for how many years now?... toronto might know, toronto and buffalo... wish they all could be cali girls, ya know... but the truth be told, it's once in love, always in love, and the story never ends {same old, same old} till the end of time)...

someday we'll all understand, right dan?...

narf :)