and then later...

just cuz we just can't get enough of this wonderful life i share in words here (yeah, there's the alas, but anyway), i bubble over with excitement in my lonely, but almost always fun vacuum cuz even though we threw away game one of our double header and even though i pitched only fair and even though i seem to have blown a lot of money on tickets hoping people would go with me and everybody so far has good reasons not to (except precious), i find myself bubbling over with fun at the moment...

and this is the real (and it feels so good to be me, even if it's just a moment before i forget and get back to trying to be human and all that whining it entails :)

please pardon my giggles if any humans out there are offended...

i turned down dinner at rasputin's and turned down dinner with the team after the game cuz i wanted to get home to shower and rest and start a new week off with a reasonably healthy sunday evening and sleep (and of course, checking in on my online world of words, which is empty, but still bubbling over with fun for me) and except for feeling lonely and missing a partner companion wild sex partner lover and best friend who knows me as well as anybody ever has (and oh yes, the one (repeat alas), life is just too much fun to not enjoy it, even all by myself (almost alas, more giggles)...

oh yeah, and the belly remains an intruder in my space, but still i am bouncing around (popped up at least a dozen time during this brief writing) even after being exhausted for an hour or so after playing a hundred fifty minutes of softball under a blazing blistering sun (scorcher, most seriously) but rebounding nicely after a cool down and bit of rest watching others play their games....

and that's sunday so far (just wanted to record this wonderful mood for posterity and me so when i feel down and lonely and stupid i can remember that even on days when things do not go well and nobody is around and everybody says no to my great ideas (except precious, yay precious... now i see another reason why people have kids), the brain can still throw a party of one without reason or rhyme (though rhymes may come later)...

hope your life is a party too :)