more competition

as i mentioned earlier, i expected more competition tonight at the fantasy football draft and there sure was as players i had set for next in my cue were snatched up on by the people drafting just ahead of me... so needless to say, as we say, the team is not nearly as strong as the last one so i will need to work throughout the season to monitor stats and improve wherever i can...

6 Tom Brady, NE QB
19 Greg Jennings, GB WR
30 Willis McGahee, Den RB
43 Eric Decker, Den WR
54 Ahmad Bradshaw, NYG RB
67 Demaryius Thomas, Den WR
78 Jason Witten, Dal TE
91 Malcom Floyd, SD WR
102 Mark Ingram, NO RB
115 Garrett Hartley, NO K
126 LeGarrette Blount, TB RB
139 Jacob Tamme, Den TE
150 Danny Amendola, StL WR
163 Packers D/ST D/ST
174 Patriots D/ST D/ST
187 Devery Henderson, NO WR

some of that was instinct and some stats, but mostly intuition and with luck, i'll be a genius... without luck, well, we'll fight them on the beaches, we shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender...

and we shall have fun fun fun all the way home :)

brain fried

staring at the screen at numbers at lists and spreadsheets and tables and babble and analysis and ... did i mention numbers?... and i did a mock draft to get the feel back and then i joined a league and did an actual draft... these were the results (probably an unformatted mess that i might fix another day, but anyway)...

Round Pick Player Position
1. (1) Arian Foster RB
2. (20) Victor Cruz WR
3. (21) Andre Johnson WR
4. (40) Reggie Wayne WR
5. (41) Maurice Jones-Drew RB
6. (60) Eli Manning QB
7. (61) Trent Richardson RB
8. (80) Willis McGahee RB
9. (81) Robert Meachem WR
10. (100) Jason Witten TE
11. (101) Andrew Luck QB
12. (120) New England DEF
13. (121) Garrett Hartley K
14. (140) Coby Fleener TE
15. (141) New York DEF

not bad for a first draft in more than a year... i did one last year but i am not sure if that league will be back this year cuz the friend who manages it is so busy... but tonight another friend invited jackson and me to her league so i will have two this year... tonight's people will probably know their football better than this afternoon' public group i joined...

unexpected, but still fun :)

what i was doing

is studying football statistics... see, tonight we have a fantasy football draft and it's been years since i followed football stats closely and fantasy football is based on stats so... today i will drive myself stat-crazy... a short break for some food, humus, carrots, a salad with an egg and some turkey... and chocolate milk...

now, back to fantasy football...

so i slept

long and deep and now, i wake tired lol (oh come on, can't anybody get all of my jokes?... this being alone experience is getting as old as the being tired experience, really... maybe it's me {lam} but if i actually lolled at everything i found amusing as i ramble along, my babble would be innundated with lols and lams and laas and more ls than anyone would want to read cuz too many lols and lams and laas and other ls might be as challenging to read as it is to actually listen to someone lolling too much while speaking and trying to convey a story or anything, ya know?)...

what?...

good morning, yeah :)

ok, i'm tired of being tired

but eating at this hour would be like putting apple sauce on the toilet seat and sitting down very quickly... yeah, sometimes just staring wide-eyed is all we can do... anyway, i will drink some water and stare at a bag of pretzels and attempt to talk myself into falling into bed and keeping my eyes closed until i fall asleep, yup, that's what i am going to do... you have any big plans for tonight?...

oh come on, somebody must be laughing...

nite nite :)

sleepy day

bzzzzzz, a bit of a headache... ate some cottage cheese... actually, ate 24 ounces of cottage cheese... fat free, but lots of sodium which is probably why the headache maybe... and fed happiness and walked some more... cuddled a bit... not sure if he's comforting me or i'm comforting him, but we were comforted... talked to a friend (phone) for a bit... not feeling too much clever, or coherency, for that matter... having too much fun being stupored... and shopping earlier but no decision yet... and teasing last night but no decision yet... and fever is ok... and belly is ok-ish... and brain feels fried...

keeping in touch, ya know? :}

fuzzy day

yeah, well, that's what a bit of fever will do i suppose... it's down now, but just cuz my temperature is 98.6 don't go calling me normal... nyuk... yeah, so, that's what a bit of fever will leave over, i suppose... meanwhile, i'm drowsy after sort of vegging for the last few hours and ... drowsy... took happiness for a walk, gave him his pill, maybe i ought to eat something... no pains, just blahs...

how about you?...

this morning

i searched for tv and internet providers and (something about yadda yadda for ya, yadda) and then, vegged cuz the body is dancing with whatever raised it's temperature (no worries, i shall sweat it out) so rest a lot and that was this morning...

updated later this afternoon, of course (tw more behind, a few more ahead, what is time amongst blogging friends, aye?... hope you are happy :)

morning is here

and so am i... waking on my own as i have been sleeping a lot these past few days... wonky and running 100 degrees fever, ain't that peachy... gonna try to relax and nod off in front of the tv, there must be something interesting on the science channel... hope life is not too hot for you... good morning good morning, yeah...

went to bed

around 9:30 and i might have slept a bit, but mostly laid still in a meditative stupor and then dog barking woke me and concerned it might have been happiness in distress, i came out only to find it was a dog outside and happiness and jackson went to bed and so, all is well and i shall return to a supine position... maybe on the couch...

blah, but love ya :)

whadya whadya whadya

wah?... whatever you have come here for, from england or germany or canada or france or indonesia or japan or malaysia (the stats tell me some visitors have come from each of these countries this month, top ten countries, that is, but i don't know if that means people stumbled through by accident or if people actually stopped by to read (because it's really so very fascinating here, no doubt)... i know a few people from the countries listed, but i don't know if they stopped by this month particularly... and then there is russia and romania, the two countries that visit most after the usa, and that's just as puzzling (except for you, z) cuz of the number of visits (almost 500 and almost 200, respectively)... could it be this recent dream girl keeping tabs on me?) almost 100 from england and almost 50 from germany are almost as puzzling... mini-international celebrity, he says laughing at himself and the hungry ego and lonely heart behind all this numerical wondering... what, you thought it's just curiosity?...

so whadya want? :)

wait, come back... hopefully you are laughing even if you don't want to say and hopefully you will continue visiting cuz as much as i like sharing, caring, interaction, comments, and people (yeah, i might even like you, feel special yet?) - i also love numbers and for whatever it's worth, i like seeing the higher numbers for visitors that i've seen in the last two months... so please keep visiting... and thank you much :)

the farting dog returns

it might be because i am feeding him a lot more soupy food (i soak his dry foor now so he eats it saturated... it makes jackson sick to look at it, so i do it... his kidneys and bladder need the fluids) and it could be the anti-biotics and it could be a combination (most likely), but happiness has been sticking up the place something awful today...

hey, you want to know what's going on in the real life here, right? :)

looking at the end of months stats too, later...

napped deep

wow, like seriously deep... like groggy not knowing where i was almost (yeah, just almost) when i woke... perspired too, like i have a fever... ate a little... banana, yogurt, humus, carrots... stomach ok, body blah, head still aches... good morn, err, afternoon... find the energy to wrap the foot and put on shoes and socks and take a walk and see how that feels... happiness would appreciate that too... he peed ok without blood, but i didn't take him past the front lawn cuz i was barefoot... he seems lethargic but ok...

and that's the day so far... you? :)

not much better

fed happiness, who is still not feeling too well what with bladder stones and an urinary tract infection, but is valiantly trying to be a puppy... me too...

while happiness gobbled up all of his food, i still have no appetite (since yesterday afternoon) and so i am just trying to muddle through the headache blah feeling... took a generic alka-selzer and hoping it works soon... caffeine and chocolate would likely help the head, but the belly doesn't need either... probably...

meanwhile, the weather channel reporters are all wet as usual, that is, they are standing out in the storm being ridiculous (especially macho man doing push-ups in the street)... dramatics and theatrics, that's all the news has become... it is sad at how happy they all seem that the storm finally did reach the hurricane stage... sadder though is the fate of people still living below sea level in flood prone areas that lose their homes... and rationally, should we wonder why we allow people to live there since they do cost us (all taxpayers) millions every time there is a storm?...

what can i say, belly aches and headaches give me cynicism...

woke yucky

headache, tummy ache, yucky all over... was starting last night and even though i slept eight hours only waking twice to pee (and i had to pee a lot too, hopefully this isn't a stone or infection... weird, have i gotten so empathetic that i am experiencing somatic symptoms based on the beings {happiness and jackson} around me?... of course, but that's ridiculous new age psychobabble stuff, ya know)... didn't take any meds last night cuz i don't like meds, but considering taking a generic fizzy antacid-aspirin drink this morning if i don't feel better soon... time to drop some weight, focus... shhhhhhh... so good morning, hope yours feels better than mine :}

feeling bad

put the laptop aside hours before the date-time stamp and curled up on the couch hoping to feel better but i gave in around 10pm and went to bed... tummy, head, yuck... but never let it be said i gave up recording the daily blah blah blah, even when it's yucky blah...

puppy day

today has been a puppy day, that is, a day spent with happiness, who is much older than a puppy, but still does his best to act like a puppy as much as he can so today i am spending most of my time walking and laying with and petting and brushing and talking to happiness... after all, this life of leisure will not go on forever (nooooo, don't remind me lam) and he will have to spend long days home alone once i head back to work so today is his day...

hope your day is all about happiness too :)

late morning

compared to the last week or so, or at least the last four or five days i think, i slept through sunrise instead of waking on my own just before sunrise) and here we are, the day is hours into itself and groggy me is just sitting down here to contemplate my navel... and i went to bed right around midnight and nodded off before that during the monday evening sci-fi (and i try to watch that, now alphas and warehouse 13 and the eyes closed anyway so i did get a lot of hours of sleep and only woke a couple of times to roll over and i remember two bathroom trips)... so anyway, awakish now... hope you had a good night and your day starts off with a smile :)

yeah, so

not the bestest of days for the news from the immediate around-here life what with happiness showing a bunch of kidney stones on his x-rays and blood in his urine (which is why we took him in for a check-up) and there is no doubt in our minds that happiness comes first, but paying rent and food and other bills just got a bit more challenging and neither of us (jackson and me) need any more debt...

skipped dinner tonight... gotta drop some of the extra 20-30 pounds i carry around the waist cuz running and playing softball (and just putting on the ankle brace) is much easier without the belly buldge... determination, please :)

meanwhile, i crawled into bed about now (yeah, this is a catch up entry) as i nodded off during the sci-fi monday shows i try to watch which usually doesn't happen... all the waking before sunrise and exercise the past few days are/is showing... sleep well :)

and the unexpected again

but if it is again, and almost on time, then how could it be unexpected, we might wonder... well, it's the way of the world in this modern culture, life and bills, monthly, mostly... and the unexpected pulls me away from the babbling and open tabs and even from that afternoon nap that i so dearly was wanting... happiness needed to go to the vet cuz his occasional urinary blood became bleeding since yesterday and after x-rays we have bladder stones and a likely infection so ouch for the poor old puppy and ouch for the wallet (almost $300) and hence, the title... the vet was not his regular vet and for the next visit hopefully his regular vet who's known him most of his life will be there cuz she is an old friend of jackson and has been through this before with her... jackson had to turn down surgery and put her cat to sleep for similar reasons and she is definitely is not ready for this...

i don't know if they tested the pH of the urine, but it would be helpful to know as that suggests the kind of stone (struvite or oxylate) which is the primary need-to-know to decide on treatment... i don't know if the vet did a culture to choose the right antibiotic, but she did suggest surgery... not in the budget ($1500) and we hope for no emergency blockage that would be life threatening without surgery cuz there is a credit card that would save his life, but that new bill would hurt, so drink more water puppy, please... we are gonna strain his pee and hope a stone passes without clogging the pipes so we can figure out what kind of stones they are so we can treat it with diet and/or meds... being a kidney stone passer myself, i feel for him...

anybody wanna donate to the save happiness fun, my po box is on the sidebar (who knows, one of you might win the lottery and want to share a little... i mean, i would, but then, you know that... i better start taking finding a job more seriously soon, huh?... sigh and all)... all the more reason to explore every possible income scenario... any advice, education, or assistance will be greatly appreciated...

winning lottery tickets welcome too...

back to the real world, happiness is sleeping now, definitely not too comfortable... not the easiest day, but it is life and the natural down side of many years of adopting and loving a wonderful four-legged family member...

new morning attitude

probably mostly temporary, but the effort to match my personal circadian rhythm with the human norm in order to more effectively job search when i get back to that and also help jackson with morning motivation to exercise and get healthier continues and except for the deep almost irresistible desire to nap after lunch, it might work :)

the previous entry referred to some babbling... it is still in progress, in case you wondered or were looking for it... the link there will be updated when the babbling is uploaded... and hopefully that will not be too long cuz there are 37 tabs open at the moment...

do something good for yourself today...

ok then, one more time

the cleverness of a bit of babbling time was not lost on those paying attention (see FOR THOSE PAYING ATTENTION to the right {sidebar} before it moves to make room for ad space ya know) and perhaps the increase in visitors and visits to this blog can be attributed to facebook or twitter or maybe old friends somehow bringing more visits or people or both to here (or secret admirers cuz imaginary excitement is better than no excitement), but the contemplated cha-cha-cha changes appear to be quite slow in happening (though perhaps not quite bogged down and just preceding in their own good time and come to think of it, why would i move on to another daily blog or even several new daily blogs when i have just in the past two months since contemplating the cha-cha-cha changes found visitors finally finding this blog {at least according to the stats} after years of anonymity except for a small dear blog family)... and as if there weren't quite enough parenthetic side notes to distract from whatever the point of this entry might have been just yet, is it just coincidence that the blog visit stats suddenly kinda exploded (10x increase) the very month i decided to start checking them?... blogger trying to fool me?... whachu talking about google?... are we still in a parentheses? (a question that almost always means more to come ya know)...

this is obviously itching to be a babbling entry, aye?... well, excuse me for thinking lol lam laa and full speed ahead <--link to come later (and thanks for the inspiration)... i'll be back to continue whatever i was going to say here later... good morning :)

oh, the cleverness

or whatever... yeah, and time, time, time still tells us a story (thank you harry) and many other stories of a life have come and gone (to maintain my own sanity, for one thing), but the cleverness is still the most attractive attribute (occasionally even adorable, which is sometimes just as attractive) of all for me because it mixes the other attributes that are most attractive to me which include intelligence, openness, sense of humor, depth, rational thought, sensitivity, empathy, adaptability, agility, versatility, resilience, self-awareness, fearlessness, creativity, consistency, curiosity, cuteness, and of course the all important assorted sundries)... just in case anybody had any references to such a personality, my number is on the right... as for me, you can describe my personality as somewhere between pinky and the brain with a great deal of wacko warner and bugs bunny tossed in, but i am quite flexible, or something like that... life is ephemeral, after all...

meanwhile, besides the loneliness and dreams, the day begins well... and when happiness woke up he came out ready to go out so we took a walk/jog (he no longer jogs more than maybe thirty feet and rarely runs more than ten and i don't push) at his pace and did his thing and we came back in and he drank water and panted happily and is resting now... jackson woke and went back to bed... and i checked the weather reports... we stocked up on water just in case the huge storm shuts down services, but i doubt this one will as it is still a tropical storm and appears to be headed north-northwest as opposed to toward us...

so another beautiful (mixture of sun and clouds) morning surrounds us (though it's gonna be a bit too warm to keep the door open much today as it's already above 80 degrees), fresh air as fresh as it gets at this location on this planet is a good thing... and all the time or just for a moment, i hope you find some ways to enjoy your day...

what time?

passing time?... what is passing time, anyway, i mean, we could discuss for hours how it is measured... the psychics and physicists could begin on opposite sides of the room and all sorts of group discussions could pop up between and all around them... outside, even, aye?... meanwhile, i don't know either, but i still wonder...

about time too... snark :)

so... hopefully there is something to smile about in this or some moments in your world (hey, no matter what, i'm gonna keep hoping cuz i care and if there's nothing else i can do, i can hope and care, even if it's just philosophically and metaphorically and in these words, ya know?... i mean, seriously, the sincerity is as real as anything... even as i distract us {or at least myself} with irreverent asides and babble)...

(ok, so here comes the actual e-the-real update part)

meanwhile, here in the e-the-real life since the last entry (as related moments ago to a friend) life has been busy (not even an entry here, after all, though given it is sunday i may do the fill-in thing if nothing else comes up to distract me ya know) and fun... a reasonable amount of exercise at softball practice in the sunny heat, eggplant parm lunch with the team after (not a sauce i will return for, but that's just my personal taste), even drank some alcohol home with jackson in the evening (still not impressed even a little... with alcohol, i mean)... fell asleep early (much heat and exercise since 10am pitching a few hundred pitches and then scrimmage)... i didn't get my shoe off until past 5pm... much fun and not much injury=related pain (much aches from the layoff)... and just woke more awake than ever (or at least as awake as the average very awake wakings on the past few years, i mean, lets not let superlatives get out of hand, aye?) no ill effects from the massive amount of sugar and five bottles cherry-lime alcohol stuff... definitely bouncier and hornier and a bit burpier and maybe lonelier than usual after just four or five hours sleep, perhaps, but still pretty much the same as any other waking at the right time of the sleep cycles... much happy and content and eager to explore, create, and share)... and the excitement continues to build lam :)

so? (ah, the wonders of the simple single syllable ego check :)

really seriously with true caring and honest love, take care of you and kit... castles still burning, world still turning, and you will still come around when you are ready... even without the song references :)

so maybe just a little fill-in

cuz looking back, you would see the flood of daily entries subsided a bit in the past week or so perhaps this is the time to insert a few catch-up type entries cuz there's more to share (besides babble) and i amd much more mentally active than just an entry a day so while the past week does offer proof that life is funner with friends i still have been away, sorta in blogging time (but what is time, right?... cha miss me?... yeah, well, there's always hope... i hope, remember?), so what's up that brings me here now (whenever now was) besides the brilliant genius of apparently random linkages...

well, i spend more time on facebook these days, probably at least once a day for an hour or so, or more like several times a day for two hours cummulative... or more?... actually that's inaccurate... time on the facebook site is probably less than a half hour a day cummulative in dozens of visits (the cellphone tells me there's a message or something a few dozen times a day) but it leads to hours online only if we count in all the time i spend reading stuff linked through the facebook... and go figure, i get only slightly more communication there than i do in my blogs... i am such a communication magnet, huh?... what was that about making money from ads lol...

what, me serious? :)

fun day today was, much less lonely cuz jackson shared it and now, home to rest and watch tv and play on the net and nod off whenever sleep comes... while it would be ever so sweet to fall in love again someday, living with a best friend is better than living alone, all in all)... hope you find a best friend nearby too :)

if i was connected

like i mean if i connected this daily life blog so i could email entries into it (or if i tweeted or facebooked status updates like many do), this would probably have gone something like...

at ragazzi's pizza restaurant with some the hung jurors (new name for the sunday morning softball team, and if you facebook, feel free to fan and cheer, aye?) and while the sauce wasn't my kind of sauce, the eggplant parm was ok... beautiful day (great mix of sun and clouds and slight sprinkles so not too much sun to burn and not too much water to actually wet us or the fields)... life is fun (funner with friends :)

heading out

to softball practice now with jackson... pretty good sleep, wrapping the foot/'ankle just right, and hoping for a fun day with more progress on the healing and no mis-steps... hoping the whole team shows up for a change (practice makes for improvements and more team-fun on and off the field)... and hoping your day has something to smile about too...

good night (again)

besides finding out that harry chapin radio is on the air earlier today, jackson was home most of the day and that was good... she picked up some of my stuff from my previous office and this brought back memories, good and bad, and unfortunately not all of my stuff was in the boxes she brought home so i texted the friend who was trying to collect my stuff and hopefull i'll hear back soon... pain in the butt, but par for the course and one more reminder why i am much better off being out of the sick environment...

we took care of a few chores and then went to hit softballs and then picked up boston market for dinner and yummy while watching some tv and now, on to bed (soon)... there is still this question seeking answers in case you want to answer... and yay for good nights :)

harry chapin radio

this would obviously be too much emo for the average human, but any harry chapin fan would love this... harry chapin radio is on the air...

i am heading out to hit some softballs now... in the meantime, there's a question seeking answers in case you missed it... blog more later :)

to monetize or not to monetize

the very fact that i do not entitle this "to sell out or not to sell out" shows a major shift in my perspectives as there was a time i felt even musicians or actors who did tv commercials were sell outs and i swore i would never do one... i've kept that promise, though perhaps through no fault of my own (laughing at my anonymity, are we?), but i have crossed the line into the blog advertising world (shudder, you didn't know?) with my on again off again consumer blog and even put an ad in one entry in this blog because that entry seems to get the most visits (and i am relatively clueless as to why), or at least i could have sworn i did... did somebody remove it without telling me?... maybe i should check the thousands of emails i get each week that i don't look at, aye?... but the question i bring to this entry is...

should i put ads on the sidebar of this blog?...

how many of you have already run away?... well, you probably came back if you answer that, but seriously, would you stop visiting?... the ultimate question that is not for you to answer is would it be worth it, or would i make any money... i would not want the ads there unless there was some profit for me as i have always wanted my blogs to be ad free and more personal... not only that, placing ads on a blog require a blogger to follow some rules and there are no rules in my babbling, so i would possibly risk having my blog terminated suddenly without warning (and it may be paranoid or history leading me to that conclusion, but i'd have to remember to download my blog more often and wouldn't want the ads in the download and not it's getting more complicated and what's in it for me?)...

the only reason i am considering the ads it i am not working at the moment and any extra income would be very much welcome... so i may try it... nothing's come of the consumer blog, but then, i may be the only person visiting that one anyway... the stats tell me this blog gets more than 2000 page views a month, so will anyone click on the ads and what sort of income could it provide, i have no clue... just thinking aloud, which is what this blog is all about, after all...

anyway, if you see adds on the right side anytime soon, i hope it doesn't destroy whatever ambiance this blog has had and i hope it doesn't turn you off or push you away... i believe one of the rules is that i can't ask anyone to click on the ads (which makes no sense as i'd think they'd want me to try to sell their products), so by no means am i asking anyone to do that - i don't think there is a rule against my mentioning that i am currently unemployed and only put the ads there in the hope they might help me feed myself (am i already getting too seriously irreverent and breaking rules?... oh generous gods of blogger and google, please don't delete my blog without letting me download the content... seriously, i don't need more reason to feel depressed and worthless and unappreciated, ya know?)...

hey, they aren't there yet, so i shouldn't be breaking any rules, right?...

anyway, what do you think?...

and another morning

this could become a habit (there's always hope)... woke on my own (i think i headed to bed somewhere between 10 and 11 as the nodding became evident) and woke around 6:30 with a decision to put the ankle brace on and walk/run around the community... you can find a few more details here if you wish... even had hope that jackson might wake to come with and for the first time in many weeks, she did... we did a little facebook dance and i put the chicken fat song on her wall there and we are gonna make a concerted effort to wake every morning from now on to go out and walk/jog until we are jogging and doing 5ks again... maybe one in september...

and now, off to facebook for a bit of communicating for friends and education and mental stimulation and distraction and ego... make today the best you ever had, or at least find a reason to smile :)

it was morning again

and while i slept more than twelve hours, it was broken more than deep and waking a bit stuffy (a head cold or, given the time of year, allergies), i hot-showered... unfortunately, the water is not hot enough here to really challenge (and clear) this body and head (the washer/dryer is in the way so changing the hot water heater temp is a challenge i have not taken on), it helped some (like halfway) and drip-drying, i sat here to clear some of the tabs off the screen (so many sites i saw, if some but for a moment) and checked facebook messages (so much drama), giving the staring dog some attention, and now... some breakfast perhaps... and then, who knows...

life is so full of leisure, it's addictive :)

good morning again

as if the world wakes at this time, as if the world awaits my good morning smile and check in, as if the world is my friend, here i am again... napped a bit more, a two hour cycle including rem and coming out of it i remember a dream of learning as i was swimming offshore near docks, and though the docks and shoreline i recall is not showing, perhaps even here...

nocturnal

it is a constant conscious struggle to maintain the daily circadian rhythm of the normal human race for my natural rhythm is nocturnal... it is more challenging when living with a roommate and even more challenging when living with a dog as the dog's dependency and the roommate's daily rhythm is opposite mine... but then, so is 98% of the world and i try to adapt (and i am much happier with jackson cuz she's my best friend and living with a best friend, especially when not working, is much better than living alone)... this subject comes up because once again i have slide back into my nocturnal rhythm this week... it is a lot lonelier this way...

how are you? :}

four hours sleep

and feeling so much more alive... yesterday they were banging on the walls renovating the apartment right next door to my bedroom so i did not get back to sleep after waking at 7am to try to help jackson wake to exercise and i had not fallen sleep until 5am so i only got 2 hours sleep so i was bleary tired all day and didn't do anything but online communicating so dishes piled up and i slid down and blah blah blah but much better now, just needed a sleep cycle... should get another one (or two) in tonight, but was not ready to slide back into sleep just now so after laying there a while i came out here to say hi...

hi :)

hope all is well and you are enjoying whatever you are doing :)

so much waiting

so i set defrag to run every wednesday and it never does... microsoft vista, you'd think after almost 20 years and how many trial and error upgrades they'd get the basic necessities right, but not microsoft... it amazes me that so much brain power can produce such ridiculously flawed product and it amazes me even more than there is no competing operating system worth it's salt other than the super expensive mac system and the few super lightweight systems out there... someday when i have money to burn i will play with mac and linix and whatever else is around, but for now, i live with microsoft... so i set defrag to run somewhere around 5am this morning and here it is 11am and it's still running and there is not even a progress screen to let me know how it's doing the way there was with previous windows... it really doesn't make much sense to have no visual record or running log file... don't make it easy or simple for the average user to understand and optimize and maximixe efficiency, speed, and the user experience... and not i probably confuse the stupid microsoft defrag program by typing into this notepad and wait for the defrag to let me use my computer again (as i consider cancelling with each passing hour)...

meanwhile, i've been wandering elsewhere, conversing through comments on huffington and facebook and other places where i exercise some brain cells and o0ccasionally write something i feel is worth sharing with the whole world (if only others would appreciate my literary genius as i do, i'd be retired so i could write full time and save the world, but noooo, i am scribbling in obscurity and the world struggles to survive human suicidal tendencies day after day... of course it is all as it must be as the words come and shall be found in the time that is right for the human consciousness to collectively elevate to actually understand, which is the other side of genius, patience...

so besides the delusions of grandeur and leaving comments in the public eye, i am doing the household chores and quietly enjoying the relaxation and leisure (and laziness) of being outside of the rat race working world for an extended period (the third month just started this weekend, ain't that a treat?)... i am finally settling into enjoying every minute of it, except for the fact that laziness is getting more time and energy than the healthy exercise energy being i have buried deep inside, so some changes must come soon (before i head back to the rat race and curse myself for not doing the exercise increase while i had the time)... of course the foot has been and still is the primary obstacle as it still hurts after extended walking or even sometimes planar facititis is present, so i must take care to prevent the latter from becoming more of an obstacle and i must take time to prevent further injury... the muscles are weak... even more annoying (yes, more annoying) is the reduction in stamina to horrible levels and the age of the body prevents the kind of recovery and rehab and rebuilding of stamina and muscle tissue that i had been used to throughout this life in this body... alas, i am not dead and hope not to die soon, so i shall push and hope the body handles it... now all i need to do is get started again (daily exercise, in case you have been fooled by the babbling)...

cooking lunch now, a pasta and cheese casserole... as the defrag approaches it's eigth hour... ridiculous?... microsoft... vista... crap... it won't be long before i open a browser and start using the computer in spite of the defragging and if that upsets things, oh well, wasted time waiting for microsoft software to work yet again... i'll give the defrag program until after i finish eating... see ya later...

away, sort of

i'll catch up backwards later, but for now, after a fun weekend and so... today was a bit of a bloat, especially since jackson called cuz she forgot her phone so we met for lunch but i had already eaten a big breakfast-lunch an hour before and was in the mood for a milkshake so i had the second lunch and then, two milkshakes and then it started pouring but stopped a little so i snuck happiness out for a walk and he peed all over his leg again (more and more every time, poor old guy) and i cleaned him and now, i wanna nap...

miss me? :)

ie9

i've grown comfortable using google chrome, so today checking out ie9 is uncomfortable to the eyes... especially the smaller text on the screen and the inability to open pages in new tabs from button links... my kaspersky (anti-virus) is set to "on" for checking the website of some links (not all) on every webpage and putting an icon next to the link which distorts the page layout which is unacceptable for blogging... kaspersky seems better integrated with chrome as i can turn that feature on and off in chrome with a toolbar button... on the other hand, ie9 has a favorites/history toolbar button i like... changing the size of what is on the screen increases the font size for everything including buttons in ie9, changing the paragraph layout, which is annoying... that happens in chrome too, but not in all areas (both browsers fail in this aspect)... there is more top screen taken up by chrome when all top bars are minimized, advantage ie9... but i like the pin tab feature in chrome... there seems to be some sort of pinned site feature in ie9, but it leads to a microsoft site (fail)... chrome doesn't have a status bar it seems, but it does have a pop up bar down there when hovering over links which has been enough for me... ie9 has the same when the status bar is removed... chrome is also consistently a bit faster than ie9, a big edge... so even though i want to check out all of the new features of ie9 and it appears to have more than chrome, at the moment i like chrome better, even if just a teeny tiny bit and that may be due to eye-comfort from recent use, but especially for the ability to open button links in new tabs and not changing the page layout by increasing all font sizes and speed... i'd need a bigger screen to better compare the views side by side and i don't feel like unpacking and setting up a bigger screen at the moment cuz there's no room in the living room for it, alas... one of these days i'll open and try firefox again... bigger screen...

woke up with very watery eyes and a runny nose today... maybe all the sugar last night, a whole lot of cake and icing for sure... some meatballs too... belly big this morning... time to put a cork in the indulgences for a week or few to drop back under 200 pounds, especially with softball season right around the corner... also must increase exercise, especially upper body work and stamina work as running any substantial distance is still at least a few weeks and maybe further off... but must start the daily test running too... clear the sinuses and full speed ahead... ummmm, no, ok, clear the sinuses and put on the ankle wrap and sneakers and step outside and attempt to lightly job a few hundred feet?... yeah, that's more like it... so when we gonna do it?... later... today, we hope, aye?... waking up groggy in the middle of the afternoon, wow, what a sweet life :)

hope you are enjoying your weekend (and browser) too :)

life is funner with friends

i know i stay home more than is healthy for me sometimes, especially when i am in a zero budget mode which is where i am right now... there is not desperate or immediate need for the almost complete curtailing of non-survival spending, but i suppose part of me just needed to (or still needs) to prove i can do it on the spur of the moment like i used to... now if only that pert of me would set the dietary limits and exercise discipline that i also used to do on the spur of the moment that the body really would benefit from right now... ah, always want perfect, don't i?... and always ready to mock myself for it too, cha cha cha... so what else is new?...

fun night with friends playing cards at the party... way too much decadent food... meatballs, meats and cheeses, i think i may have been the only one to bring a veggie tray (and i didn't eat any and there was some left at the end of the party, one veggie tray for 40+ people and it wasn't even half gone... we are a decadent dietary lot... good to see the people i had not seen in many months (and of course the shorter hair was fussed over, probably more than i noticed cuz i was into playing spades and i get lost with the people playing that game) and good to see the few i had seen more recently (who reminded me how fast my hair grows)...

and home to a happy caring note from jackson, good to see... and if the one is not available and you've gotta live with someone, it is great to live with a best friend, ya know?... well, i hope you know cuz if you don't, you're missing one of the best experiences in this life... so that's the weekend so far, hope you are making the most of yours and feeling loved - if nothing else, you've got me :)

life is good when we get along

big cheesy grin there... and it is usually good on weekends cuz there is time to rest and de-stress and enjoy time with jackson as the best friends we are (why else would we put up with each other's grumps all week lol)... early waking for some stuff around the place and then out to softball practice (she joined the morning team and fit right in), foot/ankle tired and a little sore, but held up well with mild pushing in practice and pitching an hour long scrimmage... then yummy lunch at the best mediterranean place in town and the afternoon getting tires for jackson's car, shopping, watching her make a yummy dessert for her party and now, after taking the winner of the staring dog contest out for a walk, heading out to a game night to see friends i haven't seen in many months... after the short hair shock, it should be fun :)

hope you make your weekend fun too :)

so i wandered about

the internet and the space (physical) and took a leisurely shower and stretched and relaxed and enjoyed the time passing... and i am sitting here on the porch smiling at the morning (even letting the highway sounds blend into the birds and crickets and morning)... jackson will be up soon and i think she's still joining this team that has practice at 10am and i'm not sure if she wants my help with the tires she needs (after i did hours and hours of research for her all week looking for the best tires and the best deals)...

i uploaded the the links to august writings uploaded so far in case you want to keep up to date with where i've been, though so many of the comments i leave and conversations i have in writing do not get listed there cuz i forget to copy links or some pages don't link comments... and i found some interesting reading and curious pictures on facebook too... soon i will wrap up the foot/ankle and we shall see how it goes from there...

make your day wonderful :)

nodded into bed

wise move or not, i wobbled into bed shortly after the last entry and fell asleep, only to wake a little bit ago to have thoughts of softball (anticipating practice in six hours) and the foot and health issues (like how much has my heart and other muscles deteriorated during this four month layoff and how hard should i push today and should i really start running again and preparing for a 5k and is this body getting too old for that or is the up-down exercise i do damaging my heart or other organs and... yeah, it was time to do a brain dump for peace rather than lay there and ruminate instead of sleep... and yeah, jackson's tires were in there too... the bottom line may be why can't she just trust me?... is it cuz i'm unemployed?... is it cuz i'm male?... is it cuz i'm irreverent?...

yeah, and as if the internet knew i was awake, i get a facebook message that a friend commented on one of the photos i uploaded... you ought to check out what i upload to my facebook wall if you want to know more about the abstract gibbleygoop that passes through my each each day, most days, at least... i deserve lots more attention there, here, and everywhere, ya know?...

hope you are sleeping well or enjoying yourself if your time to be awake is now :)

dog stares

the irony may be that happiness, in his constantly needy staring-for-attention way, will be the impetus for me to get out more... feed me, walk me, play with me, ah, if only life was so simple... but my luck is i'd be a dog with the same personality i have now (oh, there's a metaphysical discussion for another time, are personalities nature or nurture) and run away from the confines of home, safe and loving as they may be... perhaps it would be different with a dog's brain, but... freedom is not just another word for me...

anyway, wrapping the dang ankle and putting on the sneakers is a pain (yeah, i never liked laces, one of my little lazy quirks... of course being forced to put on a laced brace and sneakers a few times a day would keep the belly from growing i suppose... amazing that i have not gained any weight after four months without running and now two months of no working... amazing how sedentary one gets when not working and trying to maintain a zero budget... thank goodness for the distraction of dog stares, aye?)...

jackson is out for dinner and movie with a friend... we've had these free passes to the movies on the fridge for over a year now and i keep forgetting... that would have fit into a zero budget nicely come to think of it, but i forgot all about the tickets... come to think of it, i think they were hers in the first place and she got them before she moved out of town... yeah, guess they've been on the fridge more than a year... oh well, another night home to save gas... last night fridges were at a local bar-food-games place but i decided to not give into temptation (zero budget) and tonight something else is happening... tomorrow night a friend is having a big party at her pool clubhouse, i'll probably go to that...

sound bored, don't i?... whatchu up to? :)

what is missing

after all, life is wonderful without the rat race, but what is missing is physical activity... living on a zero budget means i don't want to drive unless absolutely necessary and this is florida, nothing is within walking distance and i have no neighbor-friends to help motivate me to get out more so i must motivate myself...

i am out of the habit of daily exercise and that is what is missing... the foot needs work and nobody's gonna be my physical therapist or walking/running buddy so self-motivation, that is what i need most... not gonna get any better now unless i push more exercise... so dangit, stop being lazy (what, me lazy?) and stop waiting for someone to care (oh no, not the nobody cares poor me bit) to do it with you and take the next baby steps back to running and being able to play ball myself, alone (all by myself, don't wanna be... la la la), just do it (what was that about making time, aye?...

yeah, don't be a pathetic baby, just do it (maybe nike will pay me, aye? lol lam, narf)...

who makes the time

not sure if that is a question... the point is, life is for those who make the time... the pleasures, the pains, the highs, the lows, the loneliness, the sharing, the experience is for those who make the time to experience it... and the decisions we make, moment to moment, determine what the experience shall be... i experience a lot of loneliness because i choose not to share as others share and often choose to be alone rather than share the superficial... i experience a lot of pain and lows because i share and empathize (maybe too well, aye?) and it is so rare that i find people who do not create pain and lows for themselves... not that all pain and lows can be avoided, but much can be avoided... left to my own devices, life is a pleasurable high because i make the time to find the wonder and excitement and peace and pleasure in each moment most of the time... gee, aren't i special (thanks church lady lol lam :)

this time away from the working world is starting to really feel good... i hope you find your way to make the time to enjoy yourself and life too :)

waking mostly

could have slept more, but... so anyway... besides daily chores and happiness (both inner and the dog), what's on the to-do list today... jackson left a couple of notes, some storage boxes searching for a cup (fun fun fun) and tire searching (maybe she does not realize i've been searching for tires for her car every day since last weekend... tried to tell her a couple of evenings, but she gets home so tired and burnt...

unfortunately, the best deal for her was last weekend and she was out of town and any suggestion of me laying out the money gets her upset... the deals for this weekend are on four tires so her choice is buy two at regular price or buy four at about the price of three... unless i can convince her otherwise, she'll probably buy two of the cheapest old tires they sell her for $200-$250 or more and need to replace them next year instead of getting four brand new best and safest tires on the market (michelin defenders) for $450 that will last 3-4 years or more... she can be so frustrating :}

but it is tough to be in the living paycheck to paycheck trap... wish i can help her out but that's something one must learn how to do one's self... her heart is one of the most beautiful caring hearts i've ever met... the deep-rooted human fears and habits that most everybody have in their way on this journey in this life are a puzzle... fear is such a debilitating wall/unknown... it is a mindset i guess cuz i rarely find myself doing it (yeah, i know, i almost did a few weeks ago, sigh, almost human)...

the money-stress trap, that is... maybe cuz i saw the old folk who adopted me did it so sadly and decided not to be like them... maybe cuz i don't take money seriously... i only went way over my head once (the things we do for love, la la la) and decided bankruptcy was the best move at the time... also cuz i decided the school loan deal was a potential trap i did not want to step into... unfortunately, that reduces my lifetime income opportunities, but i live in modest comfort without bills and have still been able to give away hundreds of thousands of dollars to friends in need over the years... also and maybe the key is cuz i know how to stop spending daily money (living in the moment with self-discipline)... it's amazing how much savings can pile up when daily spending drops to zero... sounds so simple i guess cuz for me, it is...

alas, i am an alacritous anachronism, after all... in fact, in case this is your first time here or you haven't noticed, i am in that mode right now, only spending for food when food runs out... cuts down on social life a lot (isn't that an understatement, seriously, but that's a whole other deeper story), but simplifies survival as much as possible and reduces all the unnecessary money stress most carry around all the time...

i wish i could just give people this understanding as easily as i give money... for now, on with the day...

push the awake

neck hurts, ear is screaming, bleary blah but pushing to stay awake so i can crash with the normals tonight and sleep deeper than i have this week... hungry too, forgot to eat... jackson will be home soon, we'll eat light veggie snacks... goes with veggie brain...

are we having fun yet? :)

some days are more challenging than others

so with the intermittent brighthouse service i stayed up until about 8am researching and then searching for tires... and the phone wakes me an hour ago and i should have known a tire place wants me to call back... i hate this money-grubbing world and the people who make it that way... tiresplus supposedly has a price guarantee and a simple form asked for the amount of lower price and the address for the store/website that offered the lower price and the guarantee states they will match it... the message on my phone was call us and let's talk tires... not we have that tire and will match that price... an unsolicited sales call and false advertising if they don't meet the price, but it is to be expected, sales people lie routinely...

jackson said she got a quote yesterday from a guy at a david maus toyota dealership for 4 tires for just over $200 installed... when she told me my eyes must have rolled because she got upset... she called back today and another guy said that the guy she spoke to was not there and he had no tires that low, but told her to come in and quoted tires at twice the price and more... she said she can't afford that... beautiful person that she is, she does not want to believe that sales people lie routinely...

if i was working this would not be a challenge as i'd just lay it out or buy them... guess she does not realize how much new tires cost... i put four new michelins on my car this past spring and it was about $560... i can probably get her four newer (latest model, "defenders" michelins for about $500 maybe $450 installed and balanced which is the wisest way to go (best tires out there)... i can probably get a cheaper tire for about $350 out the door, but the big difference is that cheaper tire will wear out in half the time or less... she'd need another set of tires in less than two years... the michelins should last her at least three, likely four and they will improve her gas mileage... all in all, cheaper and safer over the course of the next four years... hopefully she will see that...

gonna wander the facebook a while...

half sleep

the brighthouse service came and went a few more times and hopefully they will get their line problems ironed out by tomorrow... jackson was out the door early this morning to get her hair cut before work... happiness is wired... i am tired... the brain has been quite scattered this week because the body wants to go on the night time circadian rhythm and happiness just won't have any part of it (stare, lick, pant, stare, lick, pant, play play play cute when i am awake) so i will have to return to the day time circadian rhythm (so much for vacation my way) and that's the way the world is when sharing it with normals (me being an abnormal, of course)... the brain is getting some vegetative rest, at least...

crashing to couch to sleep a bit now...

brighthouse again

i probably should have gone to sleep, but was not actually tired and was actually hungry so i ate and decided to continue internet work (tires searching, dog food searching, job searching, and blogging)... as if it was scheduled, the last hour or so has been devoted to trying to get the crappy service from brighthouse to work... you can find my meaningless complaint here... they really need to get better equipment and service...

meanwhile, midnight snack was good and and the computer is trying to update itself again... ten important windows updates are downloading... hopefully brighthouse won't screw that up... my anti-virus program is updating too... that's what happens at 3am when the internet service is working... i updated the complaint page... and windows update now wants the computer restarted...

do i know too much?

or do i just think i do?... is that why i am alone?... sometimes i get so frustrated when i try to help someone and do hours of research and then i seem to come off as knowing too much... is it an ego thing?... i put so much time into researching stuff to help and end up feeling rejected and unappreciated... maybe i am just too sensitive...

the last six hours was online searching for tire offers cuz jackson needs new tires and the deals i found during the hours i spent online over the weekend were expired... unfortunately, jackson hardly has any time to talk about this during the week (she leaves 8am and gets home 8pm or later)... life is so unfair, the best people work the hardest cuz they want to help people...

wah wah wah, probably time for bed, aye? :)

spacey day

napped until happiness woke me begging to go out... he won't let me sleep in the living room during the day, unfortunately, so that sweetest of all sleep, falling out in from of the tv in the middle of the day is not happening and that tosses my circadian rhythm for a loop, but he's a needy doggie so... guess he'll make sure i get back to work, eventually...

and how are you? (i want to know every time i write, ya know? :)

sometimes a mystery

there was a time, earlier this afternoon, in fact, when this entry started and would have been uploaded but it wasn't, that there was the electric excitement of connections between all the universe and everything was about to be explained so that even the least educated among us could understand the meaning of life and the secrets of the universe, but instead just one lucky blog got connected and what came out was this relatively meaningless vitriol (hey, we all need a piss to pot in)...

long ago and far away there were conversation and disarray and i created the anti-blog to express the hate i saw everyday... there was point and counterpoint and insight, maybe (sarcasm will get me slapped anyway, but just look at the valuable information you've missed cha cha cha)... and there was no warning, after all... worthless linkage can be found anywhere... but truth, justice, and the american way, now you know where you can go (hey, everybody thought hell was the worst place to be, don't you feel better now knowing?)...

yeah, i know, now that i've offended everyone but my sister, i can remember that some afternoons are better slept through... narf :)

time blurs by again

up all night, tv on in the background (could have been an entry), wandering facebook and the web (could hasve been an entry or few), leaving comments here and there, posting to my facebook wall, on the night shift but just drifting, vegging, and loving every minute of it (except for the part of me that loves to keep track of my writing and love to write and create and play with words who is not keeping track of my writing, ya know?)...

anyway, having fun even if it's not perfect :)

wandered away

and the stream that felt so deep earlier that even started an outline dissolved in distraction and whatever... i know i wrote some deep thoughts (jack handey would have been proud) out there somewhere, comments somewhere, facebook maybe, who knows... the night just kind of drifted by after a wonderful rush... so the writer-babbler is disappointed...

at least it felt good :)

staring dog

good sleep, clear mind, writing thoughts deeper than usual, and finding myself on a youtube video against Israel (from a series of facebook pages about peace and love that lead to youtube pages about hate and war... perhaps i will babble a bit and find words worth reading on a bigger level, or perhaps i will just babble a bit... the incomplete skeletal outline for anyone seeking the undefined roots of the thought processes bubbling up at the moment started with my facebook feed and includes the following...


this facebook group called LOVE Worldwide

ah, i clicked on this page due to

facedeals...

ultimately, we can point to Milan for starting me along this path tonight...

see ya later :)

yum?

so maybe somebody can explain to me why oh so yum is so popular... does it have some message people want to read?... a word or few that attract search engines searches?...
some sort of spider (auto-searcher) visiting the page for some sort of reason?... the odd thing is that the page sources do not have links to my blog (at least none i can find) and they are (he types naively) sites offering an automated sales pitch for get rich quick schemes or social networking jobs... is it cuz i blog a lot about facebook amd twitter and linked in and so on or maybe cuz i visit and comment on so many sites around the web or perhaps some auto-reader spots specific words and gives my blog a ping or hit in the hope i will visit them curious about the site that sends me the most traffic and fall for their scams?... oddly, page views to this blog have gone way up, like dramatically, in the last few months... just take a look for yourself (numbers in uber gazillions, of course... or maybe billions... would you believe millions?... ok, thousands, sheesh)...

note that August is an estimate based on the first 13 days, but you see the actual increase in July, so what gives?... sudden attention?... i've had months in the past when i blogged at this pace, june 2009 had 210 entries, average 7 a day, and there was no dramatic increase in page views... and looking at the numbers for the past 30 day...

Sources Russia USA Romania UK Germany Poland France Canada China Malaysia

% Views 38.58 37.39 11.02 7.1 3.07 1.02 0.9 0.04 0.03 0.02

the views are still coming from russia even more than the usa and romania still comes in a strong third so what gives?... somebody selling educational material for making money by setting up websites to sell educational material for making money by setting up websites?... and somebody selling educational material on how to get a social media job.. and somebody selling what?... the bottom line is these sites don't seem to have links to me so are they sending actual readers?... ah, well, it seems not... alas and all... or at least sigh... but maybe (on the other hand), there are many new adoring fans readers out there just being shy about letting me know?...

well hello and how the heck are ya?... we could share a bit, even get to know each other and even caring about each other, not feeling so alone in the universe, ya know?... that's why i am here, i mean, partly, after all the free therapy that this writing provides to me, and the creating play and whatever, i put the words out here on the web with the hope that you will find them, be amused, and maybe even share... friends?... maybe i'm a dreamer, aye?... but am i the only one? :)

sincerity is sincere and irreverence keeps me smiling until the sharing begins, i mean, even the page views help out cuz instead of lamenting about loneliness i can just note that until this oh so yum page took over the top visited page spot, the top spot was held by a page called ok, so whatever, right? so... ok, so whatever, right? :)

late night snacks

canned raviolis with extra cheese sauce, yummy... maybe ice cream later... oh, the decadence at whatever time it is in the dark... and apparently visit every day meant each visit must be within 24 hours of the previous visit (but that's not what the instructions said, silly) and now the wish page wants me to start all over again cuz i upset the energy and must reset the mojo, or whatever, but if make a donation and all is forgiven and the writer of the page will grant my wish at 11:11... not sure if that's am or pm or in my time zone or... maybe it's a tape delay)...

oh, the wonders of the internet... so i'll reset and start over (no intention of paying for the game, but the amusement of playing might continue... imagine, magic won't work unless you pay for it)... ah, and i updated the last two weeks of sites i saw for your perusal and scribbled some words for friends... and what else can we amuse ourselves with tonight? :)

impromptu drive

hey, that would make a cool address... where do you live?... on on impromptu drive... right off spontaneous street... wonderful way, ya know?... anyway, was cooking dinner when the phone told me there was a message (left it here while walking happiness as dinner was cooking... yes i am multitasking, leisurely) and it was jackson... she locked her keys in her car so i drove out with her spare keys and then went shopping on the way home (impromptu spending too, which reminds me to go on the toll pass website to pay cuz i am out of funds for tolls, thanks for reminding me) and came home and finished cooking dinner (it stayed ok in aluminium foil, just a bit dryer meat) and walked a bit and then, here we are...

enjoying the night... and you?

fell asleep in the chair again

actually waited up for jackson cuz she wanted to get up early and while nudging her away i fell sat in the chair to stay away and fell back to sleep... she's almost as not a morning person as i am... i wake up a lot easier than she does though... probably because this body and brain have been conditioned to less sleep than the norm and also because i am consciously aware even in sleep most of the time... probably why i rarely remember dreaming, cuz when i do slide deep into rem, i leave whatever fantasies and stuff i find there down there... that's how i get along with myself, narf...

i found my way into bed and just woke a few moments ago... loving this life of relaxation and natural circadian rhythm... hope you are loving yours :)

cooking late

that's the habit of late, cooking, that is, late, as in nearly morning... egg rolls tonight... yum... and whatever was on the boob tube, tv, that is... and lots of web wandering and babbling, but none for here (isn't that just the way it seems to go lately, of late, even)... kinda like riding on an empty merry-go-round... carousel, even...

hope you are sleeping well... or enjoying your day around the world :)

ignorance amazes me

the person and/or people in charge of the NBC broadcast of the 2012 Olympics learned nothing from two weeks of harsh criticism and complaints from thousands (at least) of viewers and most of the media critics as the hashtag #NBCFail appears all over the internet... sadly, a the error that Twitter made in supporting and even colluding with the #NBCFail failure compounded itself tonight as they blocked the #NBCFail hashtag from showing up as trending in spite of the hundreds of tweets per minute with the #NBCFail tag... #TwitterFail hurts even more as it shows the new boss is the same as the old boss and people are getting fooled again... the irony of the song lyric reference is excruciating as perhaps the largest exclamation point on the #NBCFail failures was to edit to death the closing ceremonies (editing out Muse, the band that wrote and played the Olympics theme song) and almost an hour of the closing ceremony production and finally cutting away just before the finally to insert a new #NBCFail sit-com - without commercial interruption (after more than 33% commercials per hour throughout the Olympics) - and pushing the finally off for an hour to midnight on a Sunday night (so even non-internet savvy people, their primary demographic audience perhaps, had to miss the 2012 Olympics finally - getting up for work in the morning, are we?... each night they had a segment on how social media was talking about the Olympics and they lied by omission as the complaints were never address #NBCFail...

even the lead commentator for NBC, Bob Costas, acknowledged the issues and validated the complaints tonight as he noted that the next Olympics will be just in a much closer time zone, referencing the complaints over ridiculously alienating (and poorly produced) tape-delays... but like a nightmare that repeats, NBC failed again tonight even bigger than previous nights... the band playing the final song?... The Who... the song?... My Generation.... yeah, and we did get fooled again...

Costas also mentioned that two high ranking NBC sports producers did call this their last Olympics... whether that was their intention before the games or whether the criticism and their poor judgment calls lead to the resignations or retirements is for anyone to speculate)... most Olympics viewers are shuddering to think about the next few Olympics as #NBCFail has exclusive rights to mess up those broadcasts too...

The New York Times agrees, establishment enough for you, #NBCFail producers?

I turned off #NBCFail and missed the fiasco, but it was interesting reading all over the internet... sad that #TwitterFail conspired in the corporate betrayal of consumers... but the bigger they get, the more out of touch they get... history repeats, redundantly... la la la...

and the NY Times was not alone... i'll be back with more as this turns into a rant for other blogs (you can find the rest if you are interested cha know)... StarTribune - monkey shine perez hilton just look up (Google for you younger folk... snark at m-m-my generation nyuk nyuk narf... oh, and you'll have to use -zimmerman in your search query or you'll get all the apologies NBC made in their George Zimmerman reporting mess-up... if you don't understand, then google how to use google for advanced searches or boelean searches and you'll be fine... aherm) apology online (especially the past 24 hours) and even Google will prove #NBCFail

so how was your night? (laughing with me, i hope :)

do doo doo doo

i have no idea, maybe a song, but anyway, happiness is staring me down as usual... he went out at 5 as i noted in the previous entry, but wants out as much as he can and sitting around tapping at the computer makes me an easy prey for his sad big eyes and happy grin that begs for attention and food and walks... working from home could be quite challenging if i start goofing off like i do when i am just babbling and browsing and wandering the web... i have not turned on the tv today (didn't even think of it) and just realized i read that the closing ceremony of the olympics was to be broadcast live or so some report said... the pitiful #NBCFail production has conditioned me to not even want to watch any olympics this week... hopefully those in charge at NBC have learned from their mistakes... i can see some big heads rolling tomorrow...

hungry... jackson should be home any minute now and maybe she'll be hungry too... gonna go explore the kitchen now... hope you are enjoying your sunday :)

dog food theory

my theory is that a dog who is put on a low protein diet is always hungry and will scavenge for any garbage food he can find while out on a walk and no matter how closely you watch, the dog will scarf down garbage that will hurt him or her... from my perspective, happiness proves this theory, but then, that is just my perspective... he is constantly begging for food when we eat, hard core incorrigible begging, and licks the carpet under where we eat and walk daily... he is constantly sniffing the ground and grass, stopping every few feet instead of walking (though that is largely in part due to his wanting to mark territory as he will try to squeeze out pee a dozen times after he is dry) and if not stopped, he will lap up anything that remotely smells like food, including some dried feces, old bread, and anything that smells like meat...

what brings this up is the fact that he just did it three times on our walk... i got him to drop the garbage the first two times, a piece of bread and an indistinguishable something, but the third time he scarfed it down before i could bend over... usually he does not challenge after the first intervention and reprimand, so something's up and the behavior is escalating (and he'll sometimes ignore his dry food for a whole day)... he cannot be left off leash in a dog park or allowed to walk without constant close supervision or he will eat crap from the ground... for some dogs it's so what? but he is on a very strict diet is seldom intentionally fed anything but this stuff the vet put him on this stuff a few years ago which makes him succeptible to stomach upsets if he eats anything else... other reading i've done suggests the low protein diet does not show significant results in helping dogs with kidney stones, but has several unhealthy side-effects like skin problems and other issues happiness definitely does show...

but the vet is a friend of jackson's and happiness is getting older, so who am i to challenge the doctor at this stage of happiness's life... alas, i hope he doesn't get sick from whatever he ate out there today... and as i am writing he is gagging up something... i put him on the porch with water so it's easier to clean up... 14 year old puppies have some habits that may never actually change...

time for dinner, aye? (narf :}

the dual edge of fatigue

it is a matter of perspective, mostly, i think... fatigue has inspired some of the most amazing thoughts and conceptualizations in this life while it has also shut me down to be a mutton-headed dolt as the previous entries and many entries in the daily blogs can attest... after a whole day of blah boring entries yesterday this morning, after being up all night, i found my brain searching and reading and expanding into a sci-fi universe with all sorts of ideas that, ego aside, would make robert heinlein and ray bradbury proud... and i don't just mean mitt romney or barach obama as the anti-christ lol...

ah, self-mockery is my best friend sometimes...

i move along now to enjoy my day reminding dr. who fans that the internet is so full of wonderful linkages for them and hope other sci-fi fans will not just enjoy the fiction but actually create a better world... good morning, good afternoon, and continue enjoying the wonderful day that you, yourself, are personally creating :)

dreams, fantasies, and brain food

happiness is dreaming at the moment... his feet are running and he's yelping softly... wonder what dogs dream about... squirrels... other dogs... something fun, i hope... been glancing up at dr. who the last couple of hours... did you know that the original episode of the show was delayed ten minutes due to news as it aired the day after jfk was assassinated?... i mean, eleven faces, really... how does one keep track of all the doctors, not to mention all the other character changes... it's not that i am a big fan, it's really so cheesy, british tv sci-fi, but i am curious about how they sold the changes in actors and characters and would like to view the episodes in chronological order of episodes... as opposed to chronological order of time... someday... maybe i need to fall in love with somebody british for a while... yeah, right, viewing buddies don't need to fall in love with each other, just with the experience of viewing together... there are actually lots of other viewing parties i'd like to have, some well ahead of the doctor, but i don't know anybody that into sci-fi or multi-day marathons... i wonder which doctor and cast i would like best...

of course the doctors are just the tip of the story and there are key episodes that are essential to the transitioning stories... as for the companions, there are some female characters and potential eye candy for libbo, there are even more characters to explore (in some weird and amusing ways too and as you can see below, each had their own unique style and each was, well, special...

yeah, i've been spending a lot more time outside of my head lately... now i am watching about inside planet earth and reading about continental drift theories...


time to go, the sun is up and happiness is begging to go out again... strap the foot, tie the sneakers tight, walk carefully cuz the body is more tired than the mind, and maybe a nap when i get back... make today a great day, ok? :)

moldy melon

the cantaloupe was moldy on the outside and thought the fruit was 98% yummy, there was a taste of mold on a couple of the pieces, probably because of the lack of counter space to properly clean and cut fruit or any food, but still seriously yummy, 98% worth... and 100% seriously juicy... drinkable juice at the bottom of the bowl after eating the flesh of the fruit... yeah, i know, probably shouldn't have eaten it as there was a taste of mold in there, but... hopefully it wasn't salmonella, aye?... still so yummy :)

hope you are enjoying a delicious night too :)

more blur

i don't recall when i slept, if i slept, how i slept, whatever ya know?... maybe i am bonkers, but is the ever changing cast of actors playing the same characters with different faces and personalities on dr. who a little bit challenging to follow when catching the series in re-runs?... one day perhaps a full on marathon from show 1 through year seven or however many years it's been around will be shared... but the old puppy is on his own schedule and does not let me sleep (i sleep on the couch when jackson is away so he can wake me when he wants to go out and he wants to go out all the time)... and much time babbling and wandering and communicating (comments, messages, etc) and listening to this playlist, shuffled...

i have a few scribbles to fill in for the day that passed, truly, this much aimless relaxation and vegetation should probably be illegal...

delicious, atrocious

dinner and the #NBCFail olympics... i turned them off, it was just too ridiculous and even off-putting... let's all celebrate the allied victory over the axis powers or something like that... and make sure the usa is the hero... and revise history to leave out the concentration camps and extermination of millions... insult Japan, Germany, Italy, Russia (and the old USSR) and Israel and then smile and show the games...

dinner was delicious... and so is the time of rest...

and then he woke me

oh yeah, took a few long walks with happiness today... and finally napped a bit on the couch and then he woke me and another long walk and then, cooked dinner... no splurging, much, which is a very sensibleness of me... and now, the last night of the olympics... hopefully #NBCFail won't torture us too much...

olympickles

in this space the expression of disgust about the 2012 #NBCFail olympics coverage might be written, but for now, i blurrily mention that i don't think i slept and have been watching games and stuff and such and nothing clever to say...

but i was still here enjoying the time :)

yes, still percolating

the yummies were out in force, the cheese dip, the ice cream, the code red, and i think i was catching up on sci-fi tv and other on-demand a bit... i haven't been watching the shows i sometimes watch cuz of the olympics being on in the background (bad as the #NBCFail coverage has been) so i did some catching up... and games... and mindless relaxation...

you are loving it too, right? :)

still awake

in fact, with the help of chocolate and caffeine, i was bubbling around here and there and the web too at this point... why i did not update at the time is one of those who knows things, but i was babbling even if it was a lot of recycled brain matter and linkages... i was also communicating on facebook and other places... if only i could remember, i'd tell you more... blah blah blah, ya know?...

dude?

no seriously, dude?... it was the south park influence, i promise... and when turn on the reactor becomes a laugh riot it must be past getting close to dawn and we've been up all night watching south park... but actually i just caught one episode in between other shows like futurama and flashpoint (figures canadian shows and shows about toronto are becoming popular... and soon i'll be watching for an old friend's kid on tv too rookie blue on abc, august 23rd at 10pm... and she's gonna be in a new show, cracked later this year or next year... as if that connection is not enough, it's a show so closely related to the my career that it's like the universe toying with my emotions or something, but that's another story for nyuk nyuk another time)...

or perhaps it is the most attention seeking dog in the world, the wonderful happiness who's favorite thing to do is sleep, followed closely by staring at me with eyes that say please given me food, attention, and/or a walk outside all the time... as wonderful as the loving old puppy is, he is awfully distracting when trying to focus on work or babble, even... but in spite of the power of happiness and incessant drone of the late night tv (which i thankfully turned off in favor of music and i wish i had a music player that made it easy to share a playlist, but i don't know of one at the moment - feel free to share if you do)... perhaps the wonder of technology can save us if we use it wisely... shhhhh :)

for now, i think the babbler wants to wake up or something, i mean, dude, seriously, start the reactor, aye?...

ok, ok, i'm off to take a walk with happiness... back soon, probably :)

4am yummies

just in case you missed the relatively mediocre rainbow photos (speaking strickly from a technical critical photo standpoint, i mean, no offense to the rainbow, it was pretty magnificent in the physical viewing, aka real world, but then, isn't that appro?)... ... i wonder, could appro be mistaken for a professional application or an application professional?... well, just in case, i mean appropriate... or apropos, which pretty much means the same in in french or something... anyway, hope you enjoy the photo... i would share the photos of the unicorns, but they wouldn't sign the release and i don't want a legal battle while i'm not working because lawyers are expensive, ok?...

meanwhile, on the taste bud front, do you have some sort of cream cheese seafood dip in your area that is absolutely irresistible if you love cream cheese and seafood but decadent as cream cheese and the several dozen other ingredients can be?...

seriously dude, look...

creepy, ya know?... but it tastes so dang good... it's a conspiracy, must be...

hope you are having fun too :)

back to yummy

that's what greeted us on our walk earlier tonight... unfortunately my 8mp cellphone camera did not do it justice and i will attempt to figure out why one of these days... i don't think the camera has a wider view like my erikson cellphone camera did... that was more of a camera than a phone, 2mp, and i ought to keep it charged to use as a phone if i can find it... took a video too, but couldn't send it, dumb smart phone... anyway, it was actually a double rainbow in front of clouds, wonderful sight...

did i mention that publix brand chocolate trinity is the best ice cream combination packaged commercially that i can remember?... oh yeah... and oddly, it went well with a wendy's frostie... especiallt since i was thirsty... and i still have code red for the night... oh yeah... sugar... caffeine... and most of all, chocolate... how i miss you guys when you are away...

so i pigged out a bit... not nearly as much as a dozen bacon cheese crystals with sides and shakes or a visit to just about any buffet, but burgers (do they even make single bacon cheeseburgers anymore?... nevermind, i won't be back at a fast food burger place for another few years... note the other place in the temporary ad to the right bringing us the current olympics medal count widget which will be gone in a few days was not even considered)... and happiness enjoyed a few extra walks and a bit of a run (his choice... i no longer expect him to run)...

in case this entry seems like a repeat of the last entry, well, it wasn't meant to... and it had a rainbow... the olympics coverage was semi-tolerable with the sound off and the evening was fun, all by myself when it came to human compassion fun, but fun nonetheless... i hope life is coming up rainbows for you too...