so much waiting

so i set defrag to run every wednesday and it never does... microsoft vista, you'd think after almost 20 years and how many trial and error upgrades they'd get the basic necessities right, but not microsoft... it amazes me that so much brain power can produce such ridiculously flawed product and it amazes me even more than there is no competing operating system worth it's salt other than the super expensive mac system and the few super lightweight systems out there... someday when i have money to burn i will play with mac and linix and whatever else is around, but for now, i live with microsoft... so i set defrag to run somewhere around 5am this morning and here it is 11am and it's still running and there is not even a progress screen to let me know how it's doing the way there was with previous windows... it really doesn't make much sense to have no visual record or running log file... don't make it easy or simple for the average user to understand and optimize and maximixe efficiency, speed, and the user experience... and not i probably confuse the stupid microsoft defrag program by typing into this notepad and wait for the defrag to let me use my computer again (as i consider cancelling with each passing hour)...

meanwhile, i've been wandering elsewhere, conversing through comments on huffington and facebook and other places where i exercise some brain cells and o0ccasionally write something i feel is worth sharing with the whole world (if only others would appreciate my literary genius as i do, i'd be retired so i could write full time and save the world, but noooo, i am scribbling in obscurity and the world struggles to survive human suicidal tendencies day after day... of course it is all as it must be as the words come and shall be found in the time that is right for the human consciousness to collectively elevate to actually understand, which is the other side of genius, patience...

so besides the delusions of grandeur and leaving comments in the public eye, i am doing the household chores and quietly enjoying the relaxation and leisure (and laziness) of being outside of the rat race working world for an extended period (the third month just started this weekend, ain't that a treat?)... i am finally settling into enjoying every minute of it, except for the fact that laziness is getting more time and energy than the healthy exercise energy being i have buried deep inside, so some changes must come soon (before i head back to the rat race and curse myself for not doing the exercise increase while i had the time)... of course the foot has been and still is the primary obstacle as it still hurts after extended walking or even sometimes planar facititis is present, so i must take care to prevent the latter from becoming more of an obstacle and i must take time to prevent further injury... the muscles are weak... even more annoying (yes, more annoying) is the reduction in stamina to horrible levels and the age of the body prevents the kind of recovery and rehab and rebuilding of stamina and muscle tissue that i had been used to throughout this life in this body... alas, i am not dead and hope not to die soon, so i shall push and hope the body handles it... now all i need to do is get started again (daily exercise, in case you have been fooled by the babbling)...

cooking lunch now, a pasta and cheese casserole... as the defrag approaches it's eigth hour... ridiculous?... microsoft... vista... crap... it won't be long before i open a browser and start using the computer in spite of the defragging and if that upsets things, oh well, wasted time waiting for microsoft software to work yet again... i'll give the defrag program until after i finish eating... see ya later...