ridiculousness sleeplessness

rolling over didn't help... was not even into bed-exercise (maybe cuz i was on the couch, aye?)... neck stiffness, body aches, general crankiness... these are the nights i wish i had someone to lay with, talk to, and maybe even share some physicality... though this blubbery body is very uncomfortable with physical intimacy (did you ask why i sleep alone?) and i am not into superficial physical relationships and i do not know a mind i would like to sleep with these days, nights like these lead me to almost wanting to accept the compromise i know is not a great idea to do... ah, late night philosophy or self-analysis can be so meaningless (or meaningful, depending on your point of view)...

tonight obviously did not go according to plan... happiness likes it :}