on a few hours

sleep, that is... went out for four hours of batting cages and softball practice and while the practice is a lazy was of a few hours in the sun for me, the team benefits... and now, nap time... hope life is wonderfully wonder (and activity) filled :)

whatever the time

don't seem to be sleeping much again, but loving the life i am enjoying even though there's more time spent working than playing, i love the activities that both provide... still, sleep would be good too...

especially when trying to catch up on blog sharing and i don't remember exactly why i stayed awake the entire night before when i finally find a few moments to tap on the keys to let you know what's been going on...

sleep, please :}

long night of softball

cuz i went early right after work to watch jackson's game and almost played (i took first base for her team, but their players showed up late and came out on the field before the first pitch) so i ate barbecue and watched them play and then we hung out and watched the next game and then they had an awards ceremony and then i played my game... the regular pitcher didn't show so i pitched, though i didn't know i was going to pitch until the last minute, but no worries, shut them down in the first then our team hit around the lineup twice scoring 14 or 15 runs or so... after a couple of innings i felt bad and started giving them some easier pitches to hit and we won in four innings 20-something to 8...

stopped for taco bell on the way home and then watched the sad #1 team get upset by the #8 team in nba basketball and then heated up the leftover pizza and then and then and then, here we are...

downloaded ie9 last night, did i mention that?...

hope you had fun today :)

softball tacos and pizza

yeah, in spite of the abdominal pains that could be kidney stones or infection and could be appendix or other intestinal inflammation and could be signs of overindulging for too long and could be signs of aging stepping closer to death and giving up years of life, i played softball tonight and got three hits, scoring twice (once from second and once from first, which takes hustle) and we won 11-8 cuz i pitched well and the fielding was not so grand behind me giving up the runs on really cheap hits (bloopers down the line that just stayed fair and a half dozen unintentional bunts that trickled a few feet in front of the plate, then two hits that beat the left fielder down the left field line), but that wasn’t the foolish decision cuz after playing i felt good and hungry and stopped for taco bell and pizza hut in a fast food frenzy that added a couple or few pounds on the body in spite of the exercise and this will test the abdominal distress that is very faint at the moment even after stuffing the body with stuffed crust cheese lovers pizza and chalupas and stuffed tacos and mountain dew, wahoo, aye?...

work was a busy day, though i was groggy most of the day because i only got three or so hours sleep last night (did i mention i am pushing limits again?) but it seems that the iced tea i drank before the game and the fast food and dew is wiring me up for a few hours of dancing through the streets of the mind, body be damned (alas?)… life is too short to stop enjoying the heck out of it, ya know?...

hope you are loving every minute of it too :)

what was that?

long day at work with three new investigations... it's a madhouse lately with investigations... too much to do right, so i do it as well as i can... ridiculous, but that's the business of private hospitals, you get the best care within the budget... cynical much?...

yeah, so i played spades for hours and hours and here we are awake at whatever hour this is (too wide awake, as usual) and watching bad tv with half an eye while beating the spades masters in the computer spades game and wondering (not really) where do we go from here?...

fun, no doubt... enjoy yours, ok? :)

home, awake

so i eat the meatloaf because it will spoil if i don't and it's been too long out of the freezer to refreeze so even though the kidneys are acting up and i must drop weight and so on, i save money and eat home... good, bad, ugly, perhaps...

should go to sleep early, but knowing me i'll be awake playing the spades game or something with the tv on in the background...

home, awake... you? :)

semi-awakish

headache and cough and bladder woke me and now laying down hurts so i am sitting here in the little brown chair (which replaced the big green chair when we moved in here cuz there was no room for the big green chair, in case i casually didn't mention that along the way as i am apt to do or not do when life becomes more compact and less luxurious)... i sat here in the dark seeing if sleep was going to come for a little while, but decided the headache needed distraction so i shall play some spades after this check-in...

see, i care so much about you worrying about me i just couldn't sleep...

or something like that :}

hurt

lower right side, first back, then side, something going on inside... maybe a kidney stone, maybe an infection, outside chance it is some sort of muscle strain... fatigue, and the uri passed along by the ceo last week is not helping at all as the body fights the bugs that are knocking others out for a week or few... definitely a turning point, again... just need to stop continuing the turn once i actually turn around, aye?... i just love living dangerously amused, i suppose :}

how are you? :)

work disfunctions

the place is definitely heading in the wrong direction, mostly because the boss surrounds himself with people he can push around and they undermine each other out of fear of being found out or called out or blamed for something like not being a team player or not holding staff accountable or simply not having all the skills necessary to do their jobs well and they'd rather undermine others than work together and compliment each other...

so i come back from my four day weekend to find they dropped the ball again and i've got to clean up their mess and keeps the outside agencies off their backs (yes, another botched investigation... there's only so much i can do to clean up what, to an objective outsider, would look like incompetence or a cover up... so i started an investigation that should have started four full days ago and i will continue in the morning, yeah, on next to no sleep...

hungry... got home after 8:30 and then to tennis with jackson for a couple of hours and by the time eleven rolled around i just ate a couple of cans of soup... and watched tv... and vegged... fun fun fun...

wizzing by

the day, that is... woke and headed to friends for brunch and sheesh, i probably put on five pounds this weekend, or more, between the meatloaf and the brunch made of all the american breakfast stuff in a casserole, heavy on the meats and fats and eggs and potatoes and cheeses and pastries and all we brought was seriously decadent desserts... if i slept a week without eating i might lose a pound...

we had fun playing scene-it for a while and then we headed home to play some tennis and then home to watch basketball (or get frustrated by the local team) while jackson did some work cuz she has two jobs, after all... we work almost the same hours, but she gets paid for her extra hours... i am feeling dumb, aye?...

then it was the tv until i fell asleep and sunday was gone, no softball, but tennis fun and lots of fun... should sleep, but...

almost morning

and i really ought to get a bit of sleep before heading out to brunch at some friends... got some more laundry done as i was playing the computer spades and watched some random tv (one fun find was robert kelly on a random commedy channel show)...

and as usual, i hope your night was fun too :)

fun and food

saturday night cards with friends kinda like it used to be a few years back (has it been six or seven years already?... guess so) when four of us would sit around all night playing cards... working the night shift, there had to be a safe way to stay alert, that was ours... and tonight one of those co-workers from way back and her mom who was visiting from her home town and jackson and i played texas hold'em after eating her mom's chicken and dumplings...

and home again... jackson's computer is sweet... and some more stuffed cabbage filling type meatloaf (i know, the check-in with the doctor monday will not be as he wanted, but the running this week is a good sign so next time should be better)... and now, some vegetating with spades and tv...

life is good (yeah, wouldn't mind sharing the night, but still it's good :)

nap a doo

got a little laundry done and then enjoyed a sweet nap, woke to the phone to find an invite to a party next weekend... meanwhile, getting ready to head out to pick up jackson's new computer (a dell r15 with an i5 processor and 8gb of ram and a 750gb hard drive and windows 7 and i am thinking about getting one of those myself... anyway, off to a card party after picking up the computer...

hope you are enjoying your weekend too :)

lingering along

got myself out the door for another run, 6 laps in 23:58 with the 7th walked so 7 laps in 28:23... then a walk around with happiness that took another twelve minutes because happiness walks a very staggered round-about random way...

home to a hot shower, but cut it short cuz jackson wanted to buy her computer today and i was going out to meet her but then she decided against it because she was running late and so i ate more meatloaf (that is more like the inside of stuffed cabbage with the right sauce) and now, i'm feeling like nodding off so...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

meat fatigue

using up the food that is in the freezer, i made a ton of meatloaf (ok, not a ton, but there was probably four or five pounds of meat and i had made rice the night before for the shrimp i made so i used rice as a filler along with bread crumbs and oatmeal (yes, oatmeal, perhaps an attempt to counteract the cholesterol? or just cuz i wanted to explore something new) and onions in red sauce and garlic salt and tomato sauce and some ketchup and a few assorted spices (i think that's all... should i start a gourmet food blog now?) and it turned out to be more than ten pounds of meatloaf and jackson doesn't eat much red meat so i ate it for lunch and dinner yesterday and now feel what i have come to call meat fatigue which is a blurry grogginess associated with eating a lot of red meat that lingers into the next day after waking...

doesn't help that i am fighting off a major bug that my boss coughed all over my office on wednesday... it has been trying to attack all week and a whole lot of people at work have it and i avoided it until my boss decided it was time to give it to me by hacking all over my tiny office without covering his mouth and yes i was in there and oh well, can't avoid the boss every day)... so feeling meat fatigue and groggy, but otherwise, gonna make it a great day starting with a walk/run...

you too :)

visionary i wasn't

trouble seeing the ball at second base and i made three errors on balls i should have caught and it cost a couple of runs cuz home runs followed my errors, but then, the outfield caught the balls the runs wouldn't have scored... still, my vision in the twilight was horrible... alas, the eyes night vision is waning and the twilight totally messes with the contrast of a dirty white ball on a light red field...

meanwhile, i went 2-3 with one walk, scoring three times and knocking in a couple of runs (and would have had one more except the guy scoring from second missed third base and they caught him so the inning was over) and we won 20-13, so even though i played poorly in the field it was ok with the team... just frustrated me...

more exercise please :)

second time around

around the community, that is... if only that was a romantic allusion, but then, second?... anyway, another timed lap count, seven laps this time with the final lap walked and the first ran and the five middle laps walked and run, or ran, whichever might work... this time i started the first lap off faster than last time (last time was 3:33 and this time it was just over 3 minutes) which, combined with the day time heat and the fatigue cuz i did not wake naturally, took it's toll so i didn't run three full laps as i did last time, but i still did the six laps in under 4 minutes per lap (23:31) which is the minimum pace i seem to have set for myself and the last lap walked in five minutes or so kept the seven laps under 30 minutes (actually 28:35 or so) so... it's a decently good day considering how long it's been since i actually was in shape by my standards (and will never actually be there again due to natural deterioration of the body due to time)...

ok...

much to do but i kind of want to sit here watching reruns of eureka even though i've seen them at least twice and know what's gonna happen and what i really want is to see what happens next in the new shows but they are not on yet so maybe i'll just sit here and cool down and then do more laundry and unpacking and sorting stuff...

morning still smells like burnt popcorn

yeah, well, that's the trouble with burning popcorn in a microwave, the place will smell like burnt popcorn for a while... and here i sit tapping keys and watching audio-video (elsewhere again) and distracted by bad tv mostly cuz the phone woke me and i came to sit and either nap more or do what i am doing, glancing up at distracting bad tv and writing about it and whatever else comes to mind...

there's still more laundry and boxes and moving in to do so maybe this entry will do it, get me motivated... out for a jog first?... i so should, though it is noon, though it is only 78 degrees according to my phone, so... wake up, wake up, sleepiness Iit is so much easier and healthier and more right when i wake naturally...

popcorn at night

ok, so jackson did actually wake up wondering if the place was on fire, but that was after the last entry was already uploaded and she went back to sleep so all is still well... gonna have a big air-conditioner bill tonight... actually, cuz we like to open the patio door in the evening for happiness cuz he loves to sit out on the patio so much and we usually forget to turn off the air conditioner when we do that, the bill this month might be scary... gotta remember to turn off the air conditioner if we open the patio... thing is, it's already over 75 degrees most evenings and any week not it'll be over 80 degrees well after dark, so either we'll have to get used to the heat and humidity of central florida without air conditioning or happiness will just have to get out of the patio habit... he doesn't like to be out there with the door shut... these apartments should have optional doggie doors (sure, even the top of the line luxury place we were in last year didn't have that option... wouldn't be so hard, just replace the door)...

more good news is the air conditioner and fan blaring and the doors and windows wide open kept the smoke alarms from sounding the alarms and waking all the neighbors and calling all cars (and the fire department) cuz that would have been kind of awkward... i mean, i don't think i had enough popcorn for all the neighbors...

continue amusing yourselves now, i'm done :)

ok, so jackson did actually wake up wondering if the place was on fire, but that was after the last entry was already uploaded and she went back to sleep so all is still well... gonna have a big air-conditioner bill tonight... actually, cuz we like to open the patio door in the evening for happiness cuz he loves to sit out on the patio so much and we usually forget to turn off the air conditioner when we do that, the bill this month might be scary... gotta remember to turn off the air conditioner if we open the patio... thing is, it's already over 75 degrees most evenings and any week not it'll be over 80 degrees well after dark, so either we'll have to get used to the heat and humidity of central florida without air conditioning or happiness will just have to get out of the patio habit... he doesn't like to be out there with the door shut... these apartments should have optional doggie doors (sure, even the top of the line luxury place we were in last year didn't have that option... wouldn't be so hard, just replace the door)...

more good news is the air conditioner and fan blaring and the doors and windows wide open kept the smoke alarms from sounding the alarms and waking all the neighbors and calling all cars (and the fire department) cuz that would have been kind of awkward... i mean, i don't think i had enough popcorn for all the neighbors...

continue amusing yourselves now, i'm done :)

ummm, so like, we're all ok, ok?

luckily, the fire department didn't get called yet cuz luckily (i think) the smoke alarms didn't go off yet (though i wonder what it takes to set them off as there was smoke all around them) and so i sit here with the front and patio doors wide open and the fan on high and the air conditioner on high and i guess all the fanning of the smoke detector in the dining room (there is none in the kitchen itself and there's a more-than-a-foot ceiling lip or whatever the technical term for it might be around the kitchen area that kept the smoke from pouring into the smoke alarm) kept the alarms from going off and that lead me to notice that there are no smoke alarms in the bedrooms so a smoker who falls asleep (or a short in the bedroom) is dead and will cause much damage to the apartments but that's what you get in the cheaper older apartment communities, so umm, well, except for a little burning of the eyes, ummm, so like, we're all ok, ok? (excuse the laughter, i know this is serious, jackson and happiness are still fast asleep and i can't hear the tv cuz of the doors being open, i mean, serious, right?... maybe i should have popcorn tonight)...

boy, living in (e)thereal can be startling...

careful letting the other team score

so we are ahead 11-0 and completely controlling the game and the other team is coming up in the fifth inning and my team wants to play another inning so they tell me to pitch easy so the other team can hit and they (my team) can actually field (i was striking out more than half the batters on other team through four innings and they were hitting weak pop-ups and weak grounders when they did hit), so i pitched batting practice lobs and they let grounders go through the infield and they got runners on and i walked a girl who would have struck out again it i threw strikes and we gave up three runs (cuz if we were ahead by 10 after five the game would be over) and then a few errors happened and we suddenly gave up seven and i clamped down and got the three outs...

the next inning we went down one two three... so much for giving the other team runs to be able to hit one more inning, but meanwhile, they get up again for their last inning and their best hitters are up and they are psyched so they score another couple of runs but i was able to get them out and we won 11-10... and after the inning at least one of my team said i should have let them get one more run so we could have gotten up again... laughing, i said nobody said that to me on the field... they are such a cocky bunch... hopefully they will finally bring it when it matters in the playoffs cuz we haven't won the chamionship in this league yet and each my teams in every other league have at least one championship... cocky seldom works in softball :)

but still, fun fun fun cuz i love the game and playing is more improtant than winning for me, which is why i moved from the level b championship team to a brand new level d team that never played the game before in another league... still wanna play more :)
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hope your day was fun too :)

and the taste buds say omigosh

so the laundry continues and stacks of clean clothes look for a permanent place to be out of the way (haven'' unpacked the bedroom enough to set up shelves or anything, so maybe it's just time to clear off the boxes and use them as a more organized shelf) and i found the silverware (did i mention that?) and i found way outdated food in the freezer, so there's gonna be full garbage can tonight and i cokked this afternoon, shrimp...

so i'm cleaning the shrimp cuz i bought raw frozen shrimp and one after the other the process is taking more time than i want it to and i am repeating with each shelling and de-veining, never again, never again buy raw shrimp cuz i rarely have the patience to clean dozens of shrimp individually and i will completely devein shrimp before cooking and eating cuz the veins look too much like shrimp shit and the thought of eating shrimp shit kinda spoils the deliciousness of the shrimp dish...

and over and over i am repeating, never again, remember, no raw shrimp cuz it is so much easier to just toss cooked shrimp into the pan and stir fry a delicious dish and over and over again, don't buy raw shrimp, remember this, don't buy raw shrimp over and over i amn repeating cuz there are dozens of shrimp and veins on each side and again and again and time passes with each one and there's so much to do and the water is running and there is no savings (monetarily) after considering the time and the water, so never again, repeating, never again...

and then is taste the food i cooked and the taste buds say omigosh... fresh cooked shrimp, even raw frozen shrimp properly cleaned and cooked, is so much more delicious than pre-cooked shrimp... drooling is allowed...

now, of course, i must motivate myself to continue doing what needs to be done around the house (and heading out to softball later) instead of taking the nap the brain will want after that delicious early dinner...

loving this day off :)

productivity, sort of

for some strange reason i am all about cleaning house, unpacking boxes (yes, we've still not actually moved in and there are boxes in the corner of the dining room area cuz this place is just too small to comfortable unpack and move around, most especially the kitchen, so we ignore it...

but today i decided it was finally time to find the silverware cuz we ran out of plastic and even though i bought more plastic silverware while i was getting my oil changed, i found the silverware and other things and started laundry and folded clothes and an sorting through boxes and who knows, might even clean thekitchen and turn the living and dining rooms into living spaces clear of stacks of boxes... wow, aye?...

gonna check the fridge and freezer and cook something now... hope you are enjoying your day too :)

waking naturally

it is such a rare treat these days, to wake naturally when the body and mind had enough sleep... the working life is suicidal, ultimately, because it prevents the body and mind from resting as it should for optimal health, but it is just one more way humans demonstrate their suicidal tendencies...

off to take care of the body a bit, a little exercise, the labwork (i remembered to remind me, but first jackson did, which was great cuz that reminded me to remind me, so i am out the door to the lab and then an oil change for the car and a bit of shopping and then, who knows... maybe play games, vegetate, or something surprising like life-home stuff i really ought to do...

see ya later :)

like i said, elsewhere

what?... background tv blabber and bullsugar... toldja i was elsewhere, but just in case you were curious (or cuz you love me so much you wanna know), i slipped this entry in cuz i love you loving me this much (or just care enough to satisfy your curiosity, if that's all it is)... amazing, huh? :)

ramblin

on elsewhere, on vixen, on dasher (hmmm, vixen and dasher, sounds like early talkie-movie terms for a sexy woman and man, but hey, who am i to question the names writers choose for animals in children's christmas stories, aye?), i rambled...

and did not each poorly at that... cuz i must go give my blood and urine tomorrow so i must eat light and fast until i give the blood and urine... remember to remind me tomorrow, ok?...

tomorrow is another day :)

what to do (weighty thoughts)

i have a doctor's appointment on monday and kinda sorta lead him to believe i would seriously consider a limited partial almost committment to actual dietary changes to fascilitate actual weight loss and gee, i didn't do it... so do i semi-starve myself for the next five days or do i celebrate my four day weekend with the dinner i so deserve and kinda sorta want...

the decision, for the moment at least, is to eat a can of vegetable soup. a bag of light pop corn, and some raw unsalted pecans... my taste buds are moderately unimpressed and that part of my brain craving a meatball parm sub is cursing my higher functioning brain's decision...

i don't know if i'll keep this up till monday, but i did wake early and run this morning... and will a week (i've been eating light and healthy since monday) of sudden strict healthy light diet will really matter?... only if it's followed by thirty more weeks (or at least days) of the same to change the metabolism and drop the weight and then, the occasional new york hot dog with red onions (had more than a few of those sunday) and meatball parm sub and massive extra everything pizza and piles of pasta with rich sauces and and decadent chocolate mousse cake and milk shakes and and and...

this does not bode well for a week of serious change... but at least there is a start... perhaps one day of decadence a week might keep the wight loss program on track until the magic 180 (heck, i remember a lower number being the goal once upon a time) mark is reached once again...

sure, time will tell :)

actually, not quite

the previous entry was testing the text blogging feature and i discovered that only one blog (per account, i suppose) can be connected to each phone so... i started one of my other silent until now blogs for the text blogging cuz it'll be random odd thoughts and not actually (e)thereal all the time...

woke early cuz i went to bed early, ran five and a half laps around the apartments and showered long and muscles smile with fatigue... body a bit banged up, but who had time to notice... rest the next two days off, i hope :)

off to work now, hi ho :)

Testing one four seventy two

early to bed

yeah, baby, gonna party in my dreams tonight cuz the body wants sleep more than the mind wants play... into the deep, see you on the come around :)

addicted to sleeplessness

responsible me would have not stayed up all last night playing championship spades cuz i had a weeks worth of work to do today and i should still be working through the night but i ;eft work when full blown zombie brain set in a while back and then, i got back into that spades game again so here it is, later than we think, and tomorrow is a major league busy day of meetings... can we spell vulnerable?...

meanwhile, the spades game is too easy... i'm a master 1st class and there's nobody better to play and i've won 61 out of 65 games and the last fifty six in a row (took a few games to understand the play of the game)...

meanwhile, catch up one of these days, ya know? :)

someday, posterity might thank me

whadya mean might aye?... yes, well, anyway, for you, dear reader arriving after today (as in the date stamped on this blog entry), this is the entry that belongs right here on this sunday in april... posterity would understand...

so all weekend i lost myself in the new championship spades game except for a little dinner and computer shopping with jackson and today a triple header softball day and yummy new york sabrett hot dogs and onions in tomato sauce (that is more like ketchup)... then, back to the game (shoulda slept though, another majorly busy week ahead)...

loving every minute of it (mostly :)

what did i do?

heck, a whole weekend i don't remember?... how can that be?... was it friday night that i decided i just had to play spades and went and bought championship spades and played all night and the slept most of saturday and then played all saturday night?... i remember doing something else, just don't remember what that something else was...

laptop shopping with jackson?...

too much fun, aye? :)

home home

just missed the softball game as the flight was delayed and i would have had to fly (as in seriously speed) to get there on time if the flight was on time so, home again, no more work for tonight...

want love, sex, rock and roll... don't want to go anywhere, tired, burnt, that wonderful after party glow... settling for fringe...

fun too :)

airport blahs

like oh well, i connected to free wi-fi at the airport just fine according to the network card and the signal is excellent with five bars according to the properties but it is still limited connectivity and i can’t connect to email or any other website so i think Atlanta airport offers a very limited free internet access and for full internet access there is a charge… any way to make money… so while i would love a nap now and just turned on the computer to have something to do and keep myself awake while waiting the hour and a half for the flight to start boarding, i shall sit here nodding off tapping the keys… definitely overdosed on caffeine the past two days… and good Hilton hotel food… and amazing desserts… and so much for dropping weight cuz i’m pretty sure i am back up to max again after dropping some last week…

the plane is sitting out on the tarmac and it has those turned up at the end wings that some planes have these days... the ticket says it’s a 757… guess the 757 replaced the 727 cuz they seem about the same size on the inside, a bit cramped… haven’t been on a longer flight in a while so i haven’t been on a big plane in a while… i’ll probably fall asleep on this flight, even though it’s a short trip… the brain is fried, so much information in two days and all that sugar and fat does that… they say it’ll take more than a year to actually implement all of the new processes and stuff they went over, which makes sense cuz there was just so much… and there will be a whole lot of resistance cuz they do not like change at work, especially not when the change involves sharing the leadership role…

the plane outside just pulled away, so i guess it was not my plane… ok then… makes the wait seem longer even though boarding time is less than 40 minutes from now… sleepy brain, no focus, and the airport is so not busy… all the earlier flights were booked according to the ticket machine, but this one looks empty so far… there is some time though so it might get more crowded… i am in zone three this time, so i am further back in the plane so i get on a bit sooner so hopefully my bag will fit in the overhead without taking the laptop bag out of the main bag which will give me more legroom…

meanwhile, the plane is not out there yet and boarding is supposed to be in twenty five minutes… maybe it’s a flight from somewhere else stopping here with a quick turnaround which would make sense for there to be few people boarding here but that might mean it could be a pain to find space for my bag… the flight here my bag flew in first class cuz the plane was so full… caffeine crashing, brain crashing, so want to sleep… a lady sat directly across from me and so every time i look up i am looking directly into her face which is odd cuz there are seats everywhere… libbo has no interest… brain has no interest in interaction at the moment either… wonder where the plane is…

the sign on the wall says this flight has three different flight numbers from delta and from aeromexico and from aitalia… probably just making a stopover here and then a stopover in orlando before a flight elsewhere (to mexico then italy?... maybe i’ll sleep deep enough and keep going… somebody will probably wake me, i mean, it’s not like a subway… had to take a subway to get to this terminal though… big long airport here… meanwhile, boarding time is in 15 minutes and still no plane and it still says on time… scoot in scoot out and refuel in orlando i guess… of course i am just rambling to keep myself awake… a couple of really fat people just got wheeled up… they get out of the wheelchairs just find and take seats… i don’t understand how people do that to themselves… i know, it could be a medical condition… the medical condition might not even be just a money-making excuse even… there are still choices most of the time…

ten minutes to boarding time and still no plane… still says on time… more people around though… the flight may be on time, but the board probably won’t be… wish i was more awake, i could have enjoyed a good airport ramble… haven’t done that in years… and there’s the plane…

no work tonight

just not into it... head too full of rebellion and fairness and justice and assorted fact and body too full of sugar to deal with the concentration... maybe tomorrow or over the weekend...

down to the sports bar with the boys for a bit (me water, them beer) and not much happening at the airport hilton in atlanta tonight... just a lot of guys from other places drinking beers...

lazy brain tonight... sleep tight :)

love the challenges

which is why i continue doing what i do in spite of the potential to make more money and have less challenges elsewhere... people are insecure, nuf said... so another day-long session of learning how the new corporate system works (confirming what i already knew through end-around sources) and i shall continue with other work tonight, but for now i shall relax a few minutes and muse over the amusement of pondering the challenge of actually implementing this new system in a place that fears and is highly resistant, actively and passively, to change...

yup, love the challenges...

how are you? :)

working late again

good dinner, almost two, in fact, that's three nights in a row and that destroys last week's healthier eating, but oh it was good... found an old friend who i didn't know was coming to this session of the corporate meeting and caught up, yay... was getting lonely eating by myself... came back up to the room after taking a walk and did a few hours work, thoughh still have more to do to catch up... maybe tomorrow...

gonna try to fall asleep now cuz it's an early day tomorrow (7AM breakfast meeting, then a whole day till 5pm... fun fun fun :)

you? :)

working on the road

with the Atlanta skyline in the distance, i sit here on the ninth floor of the Hilton providing you with an update of the madness that is this life as i have come to know it... i checked in and since the corporation is paying, i've got access to everything including internet and so, here we are...

bored... lol... so this is just a wave hi in case you were sitting on pins and needles wondering if my plane crashed (it did sit on the runway for 30 extra minutes cuz orlando is such a busy airport)... all is well... you can breathe now... thanks for loving me, i love you too...

there's a lot of green between where i sit and the skyline... also a "word of faith" billboard that, if it was not to the left of the skyline, is big enough to block out the entire atlant skyline... the billboard is rusty... lots of billboards out there, but that's the biggest and highest by far... religion is a powerful business...

gonna go explore the hotel now... and find food... wish you were here :)

wtf?

look up and it's gone, life, love, talent, youth, sex, drugs, rock and roll... actually, i was referring to this empty blog space box which just suddenly disappeared as i was doing something else on this dumb microsoft browser and i wonder why i still use it except for the idea that the computer runs faster and smoother with less on it, not more, and the more non-microsoft stuff i've added to a computer over the years, the slower and less compatible everything becomes so i put up with microsoft by defaalt because i do not want to spend twice as much for the better os...

but it was a long day, anyway, just getting home an hour or so ago and eating yummy leftover lobster and shrimp deliciousness with pasta and mashed potato and sauce and chocolate milk wow wee kazowie...

working late drives me a bit bonkers...

how are you? :)

remember the garden party

sometimes the most intricately crafted nonsense can feel like such genius, or something like what?...

that was for the few who might have known had they believed, the few who remember the garden party and most of all, the few who belonged somewhere else cuz it's all right now... yeah, please yourself is a large part of the secret to a happy life, but balance is still the most essential ingredient... flip the coin and you find honesty without harm...

work is a landslide most of the time and the best i can do is hold on, tread water, and sometimes just lay back and enjoy the ride (and hope nobody wants to bury me alive)... but i will not go down quietly in this life, so play is just as busy and wonderfully fun...

took jackson to red lobster for dinner tonight and after not being there in almost a year, it was yay yummy lobster feast style and even a quirky mistake turned out wonderful as they screwed up in the kitchen and brought the food out cold, so they re-made it for free and we got to take home the cold froom for leftovers and gave us the employee (crew) discount so the waiter, who caught the blunder and put up a second order before we even said the food was cold and got the manager to comp the second meals and give the discount so he got a sweet 50% tip which probably made his night... and we've got lobster dinners for tomorrow night too... happy birthday jackson lol :)

so relax, enjoy, and make the most of it all, the challenges, the mistakes, the goofy gobbly gremplins and goobers and gbstoppers of this life as you waddle, muddle, wobble, walk, dance, crawl, or fly through it...

and keep in touch (there's always hope :)

sleep, to wake early

won both afternoon games in spite of the team not showing up ready to play and never really warming up even through the second game... this lack of prep shows itself in wilde throws, lack of focus (like not paying attention to coaches when running bases, not hitting/fielding properly, the basics of softball)... but the teams we played were not that good and we got lucky a few times... so we are 3-0, like last year, start our great and do well in the regular season (7-1 last year)...

must sleep now, waking 4am to help jackson wake to work...

sweet dreams :)

back early

since i have two games this afternoon i decided not to stay at the field after they first game (we lost 12-7, but did better than previous weeks... four errors less and we would have won, or better hitting) cuz it is way too hot out there and i got a lot of sun yesterday... relax a bit, then out to shop and get to the double header...

hope your sunday is a fun day too :)

ok, sleep dammit

turned down a party (probably was going to be for me since this group of friends found out it was my birthday a day or two late) to rest and do some house stuff tonight (laundry please) and watch some ncis and now, fold clothes and go to bed...

nite nite :)

yeah, great day

the energy is flowing today just on a good night sleep and some healthier eating the past few days (and the stupidity of not doing this every day is so obvious, it would ruin anybody else's day {and technically is taking years off this life right heaya, moron}, but life is too much fun when i am awake and i am awake today)... running around on the softball field in the sweltering heat was uber fun today and i wanted more and everybody else (yes, the kids) were eager for sit-down breaks...

after practice i stopped at my favorite gyro place and picked up food for jackson and me and when i got home we ate the yummy food (though she ate only a little cuz she is going to dinner with her parents who are coming to town tonight) and then we went out for a little tennis (not enough for me, but her parents got here) and then they left and i am heading to the showers cuz it is a hot one out there today...

loving the feeling of wanting more, even though it brings back the reality of how alone i am when it comes to energy level evem when i am pathetically below what i've known as "my" energy level in this life... must make the time for sleep and healthier eating (and weight, drop the dang 30 pounds once and for all)...

and how are you? :)

good sleep

definitely feel much better when the body gets rest and the sleep is good and deep... just wish there was more time, but wishes like these are futile no matter how much they are needed... heading out to softball practice now, then lunch and home...

make today a great day :)

no time for nuttin

besides, i left my delicious deluxe nut mix at work along with my fruit and yogurt, but i had some yogurt and a mini-orange and a chicken breast baked and a can of vegetable soup for dinner, so three or four nights in a row i have not pigged out... except for the sushi on wednesday, but that was a party, after all...

home from another win for friday night softball, 16-8... there is a really good team out there that we have not played yet, but we are pretty good too and most of all, we have fun... i got a hit, a walk, and popped out tonight... i also made two errors on line drives at second (and i don't usually miss line drives) and the other team scored four or five runs that inning and i felt discombobulated and uncoordinated, even, very strange... my big glove does not help, but it's not the glove's fault my eyes are getting old and don't handle twilight well... anyway, the team was all about 'don't worry about it' and they want me back, so yay team...

long day at work full of investigation again so my routine work simply got put off for another day... the boss sets it up this way and will use this to fault me for being late with quarterly reports and i shall shrug and not get caught offguard (he's really good at catching people offguard)... the nature of corporate politics...

so woke and rushed out to work and didn't stop to eat all day except for some nuts (and they had institutional fried shrimp and mac and cheese for lunch, yum, a favorite, and chicken parmesean for dinner, almost yum cuz anything parmesean is yum and i didn;t eat none of it, not nuttin, not no how... the snack monster is going just a bit nuts this week... luckily i had deluxe nuts at work to snack on) and rushed from work to softball to make it on time and then did not stop for food on the way home even though i pass a gazillion yummy places and junk food places too (this country is addicted to fat greasy sugary foods and that is our downfall) and then, a bit of cleaning and eating the healthy food mentioned above and now, sitting and typing this entry for you...

so maybe a little time for nutting, aye :)

how about you? :)

and another one down

and another one down and another one bits the dust... it's been a few weeks since my new friday team lost a game (in fact, they are undefeated since i arrived)... and the thursday team one the first game of the new season tonight... thursday and sunday night teams do great in the regular season then fall apart in the playoffs most years, but we have fun most of the time)... my sunday morning team rarely wins, but they are brand new to the game and a few are very uncoordinated, but we have fun most of the time too... anyway, it's been a few weeks of fun softball :)

gonna find my way to bed soon, i hope... though it has not been happening much this week... the brain wants more stimulation... as do other body parts... and my heart, maria, and my heart... ah, i so miss musical theatre, really i do... i hope you are having fun too, even if you miss some stuff... cuz that's what it's all about :)

ta da! lol lam narf :)

another long day

at my desk at 7:30am and just getting home and this is one of the shorter long days, but hey, i love the work and have nobody to come home to, so...

i have a softball game to get to in a couple of hours, but for now i will sit and rest and eat something and sit and rest some more (wait, i sit all day at work most days, so why sit more?... well, the brain needs rest, but exercise is the best way to rest the brain {while exercising parts of the brain that sleep while sitting in a chair at a desk all day}, yeah, so wise, and yet, so stupid for not doing it... so i'll watch tv instead)...

doh! lol lam narf :)

surprise

few of my friends know my birth date and i am not a big fan of parties for myself, no less surprises, so when i showed up for dinner with jackson to find four of our friends there, i smiled and thanked everybody and felt good that she cared enough to get friends together and was happy she doesn't know all of my friends cuz small dinner is better than large all night party with me at the center of attention... once upon a time, the center of attention is where i lived cuz circumstances kept me there but i was always happier in the background... just different that way (one of many, aye?)...

sushi was delish and they had balloons and party favors and stuff out on the patio of the restaurant and we laughed and had a good time... good for a weeknight... work tomorrow, sleep soon, smiling :)

brevity

the whole point of this blog was to craft my communication toward brevity because in the past i babbled (past?) because i love words and playing with words and saying things in written words in many different ways and even the occasional repetitive redundancy for amusement now and then to test my wit and amuse me, but then, who has time for such endeavors?...

of course i also enjoy ranting, dreaming, complaining, laughing at myself as i complain, and most of all (in a literary sense), expressing myself and all my senses perceive and all my imagination can create in words (and there would be links to each of these words if att (sucks) did not delete my 30Mb website, yeah, 30Mb of written pages, let's all collectively sigh, ok?)... but then, again, who has time for that either...

some do, i used to, but few... and now, as this wonderful day of relaxation and pleasuring myself with whatever i wanted to do comes to an evening and happiness is begging to go outside again and jackson will be waiting for me at wassabi, a local sushi place, to buy me dinner, i smile...

wishing there was more time is a waste of time (but i'll waste a bit now and then too :)

yeah, it's that good

not necessarily referencing anything in particular, or life in TheReal(TM), for that matter, but enjoying the moments as they are and relaxing as much as the body will allow...

hope your day is as much fun :)

happy birthdfay!

lol lam quoting frosty the snowman's first words in the title is not just coincidence of date but also reflective of the feeling that has been more rare in recent years because i seldom make the time for me to awaken any given day the way frosty does... if you know what i mean...

we are reborn each time we open our eyes, especially after a good deep sleep... so make today your birth day too :)

and now the end is near

well, i certainly hope not, but the senior class is letting out and life is moving along even if i will never retire from the work world again unless some unexpected monetary bonanza appears out of the blue... like mila kunis adopting me... or falling in love with me... yeah, that seventies show happens to be on the tv (it really is such an obvious show) for the first time in a long long time, but that's besides the point, whatever the point might have been...

are you living your life? :)

off midweek yay

that's right, for those of you trying to keep up with me (still dreaming the impossible dream, are we?), i am home from work and do not go into work tomorrow and as undermining as it is down the road, i am definitely going to not even think about work tomorrow (even if they call)...

gonna cook ribs and chicken now... gonna explode with excitement of enjoying a midweek night off followed by a mid week day off... gonna love every minute of it...

you? :)

and the story continues

alas, the text message mobile blogging idea sucks for one reason and that is my love of titles cuz the mobile blogging apparently does not allow for titles... so the story continues in the as technology of my new smart phone makes me feel just a little dumber mostly cuz i do not have the time to focus (and whip up the patience) to take the step by step learning process in stride so i rush through it which is the worst way to actually learn anything...

like maybe the stupidest thing on television yet is the plethora of forced drama in the kitchen, i mean, come on people, it's just food and it's the eating that matters most... we cook thousands of meals a year, stress and curse and fight over each one and you won't last the year...

meanwhile, being human and stargate: universe kept me company while i caught up on the (e)thereal weekend and a few other odds and ends and hopefully tomorrow will be a good day as i ends with my birthday starting as the midnight hour rolls around (we shall see if the boss has any sort of heart at all, i suppose)...

life is beautiful... how about you? :)

titleless

Teasting

Typo. Supposed to be testing. As in testing mobile blogging to (e)thereal. Of course I may be teasing too, after all. The rang phone corrects my punctuation but also adds extra periods cuz my fat thumbs are, well, fat for this texting world even on this fancy big screen HTC inspire smart phone gadget (I am beginning to believe they are called smart phones cuz they are making us dumber by the.minute).

So did it work? :)

work, work, work, blah

there must be some way outta here, yeah yeah yeah (if she only loved me know)... laughing somewhere, crying somewhere, loving the feeling of being alive and still, lonely for sharing it... hot day, long day, just getting home and hungry and tired and don't wanna cook and wanna hug...

ncaa basketball finals in a few, jackson home in a few too i think, eat and relax and wish you were here (all i ever needed was... lam :)

yeah, i know

sleep just doesn't want to come cuz i am still wired inside even as the body is wonderfully tired and so joyous to be alive and happy and me (ego aside, i like me in spite of the trouble i've gotten myself into :)

another ridiculously long work week in the morning (and trying to take a day off, which is impossible as the work has to be done on other days, or nights, for that matter), but i'm gonna have fun in spite of the workload...

hope you do too :)

irony is not always ironic

back from tennis with jackson and i finally won one after we went 6-6 in games and into a tie breaker and she had me 6-2 and i fought off four match points and then won the tiebreaker 8-6 and wish we would have played more but she was too tired...

we won the softball game because the other team forfeited, strange, the team we were to play changed their name and was the same team that we lost to in the playoffs (you may recall the blow up when my team didn't show up) and that just goes to show that they are a team that knows the regular season doesn't really matter cuz it's the playoffs that count if you really want to feel like winners... my team doesn't so i'm just out there for the recreation and i shall continue to do my best to not be competative while still keeping sharp enough to not get hurt (it's a delicate balance)...

and now, womens ncaa basketball... hoping mya moore gets another... the men are not offering much talent in this tournament after all... spoiled by the amazing talents that have moved on to the nba in the past decade... and memories of the few who rose to the occasiona in the tournament... anyway, on to relaxing a bit...

hope your weekend was as fun as mine :)

pausing a moment

between games... the early team lost, as usual... most of them are playing softball for the first time, a few have poor motors skills and can barely throw the ball twenty feet in a straight line (i have to walk halways to home to keep from having to field every ball from my catcher as a ground ball and all that bending is tiresome...

on to game two in a few... hope you are living alive today too :)

off to the ball game

somewhat sleeping, but not nearly as achy or tired as i thought i might be after all that tennis last night... jackson is pretty good and a lot younger so she beat me in two sets, first set went to 6-6 so we went to a tie breaker and she won 7-5 and the second set went to 6-5 her serve and i fought off six match points back to deuce and finally she won... she probably wouldn't have played a third set, i have more stamina than she does, but she's got the younger reflexes... maybe next time (i don't like the game to end anyway)...

gotta go, have fun out there :)

almost 4am

yeah, but not quite wide awake tonight... giving in to sleep is wisdom cuz if i don't i'll not enjoy playing softball tomorrow... so i wandered the web, youtube, facebook (though that world interests me less and less) and my favorite few on twitter... if i was more awake i'd link them... try here...

sleepy time, wish you were here...

well, one of you :)

sleeping?... why not?

yeah, i really ought to be sleeping, as i've said for years... i have early softball tomorrow and just came back from two and a half hours of tennis with kackson, yay for exercise... i wish she didn't work so much so we could exercise together more, but she's got bills to pay cuz she loves the spend money so she works two jobes and on-call every few weekends just to treand water... some months i pay all the bills here so she can keep up with her bills... not good for the retirement fund, but that's life as i know it, giving it all away...

it's worth it to me to have a playmate around, even though i miss complete privacy, i love having a friend around too... so maybe i'll get to sleep one of these hours so i can make be wide awake for softball tomorrow...

yeah, maybe :)

what am i up to?

watching the final four with jackson, i think... time rolling by away from the net and letting my mind vege and wander and la dee da dah ya know... or maybe ya don't, but you oughta, cha...

fun fun fun...

yawn :)

ncis characters are my friends

lol, yup, that's (e)thereal these days, or years, to be more precise... the past year or so, especially since jackson moved in (two years or so then?), the characters on ncis have become friends in that sense of i care about them and want them to be real and stay in this life (even if they never become real offline)... they remind me of people i once knew, a little, even though there's not a pure libbo fantasy on the show...

so today is a relaxing day at home browsing the web and watching my ncis friends play their parts in the show... it's reached a point where i find an episode i've seen about every third episode, or maybe every fourth episode, but more and more, reruns... alas, it will come to an end eventually, but until it does, every new episode is getting to know my friends better...

some days are like that (life is illusion, after all :)

relaxalax

a wonderful day of relaxing ahead... and i actually went to sleep just after midnight last night so i slept a lot, though i was awake on and off for whatever reasons and so i am not as refreshed as i ought to be, but then, the body does not refresh the way it once did and i have been pushing to hard the past ten years that the body could sleep for a month (but the brain wants to stay awake for a week to just scratch the surface of beginning to catch up on all the creative play and literary therapty and potential communications gone by...

hope you have a wonderful day too :)

lol narf :)

heave hop

solid line drive hit to right on my last at bat scored a runner from third, but my first three trips to the plate were mediocre ground balls and i only got on base one time on a fielder's choice, but the fourth hit felt great... we won 17-10 after giving up eight runs in the last inning... i made a few good plays at second, fielded everything in front of me, but could not get to two pop ups behind me in shallow right... my weakness, pop ups... these two would have been great plays though, they were at least fifteen feet behind me and not too high... one line drive might have been caught if i laid out and dove for it, but it's been years since i did that and the rust might crack (chicken, am i?... well, it's just my second game playing second base in... many years)...

picked up some short hoppers and fielded all the throws from the outfield and from short, so all in all, almost satisfied with my fielding and since the team hit well and won, i'll accept my hitting for the fatigue it was... must remember not to swing hard when i am this tired...

and home now, jackson is always in bed, wonder if she feels ok... i'll keep the tv off tonight cuz i don't have one in my room and her room is close to the living room... it's me and the internet and the words, perhaps like old times, maybe... we shall see...

hope you are making the most of your time and enjoying it too :)

not giving in

as much as those around me might choose to make life more challenging and as much as those who have lived the number of years i've lived are wll on their way to giving up, i refuse, i deny, i am not giving in... so i'm burning out from a very long and stressful week of running around satisfying surveyors and investigating incidents and while part of me wants to couch potato tonight, i'm heading out in a few to play softball as i've been recruited for a fourth league again and this time i get to play second base, which is a treat as i've lost a few steps and am majorly rusty for pop flies, but they have an old guy pitching (finally, a team where i'm not the old guy... and it's not even a seniors league lol)...

should drinks some caffiene, but i'm just gonna deal with the fatigue and do my best... cuz life is too much fun to be sitting around burning out, cha know?... wish you were here :)