emergencies follow me

i have never known biological family... so perhaps that is why i always look for someone who might want to be my family... adoption is the only family i know and anyone can be adopted so anyone can be family... it's given me a much more real "family of man" perspective than the average biologically connected human...

i am not sure if that has anything to do with my habit of attracting emergencies... costly emergencies, no less... and it is almost always just when i am about to almost talk myself into actually considering spending a lot on a large purchase, like a computer or even down payment on a new car (what?... a house?... well, it was once and it could have been again, sigh and all, shhhh, it's not giggle time unless you're here with me, or understand well, or something like that)...

yeah, so poor planning and bad luck and mix in some irresponsibility and blink, there i am coughing up enough to buy a netbook and a laptop tonight... yeah, family in trouble, and after a brief, but agonizing moment of "what about me" (and the poor-me drama scene), my savings to the rescue... and then, alone, reality sets in and i face the fact that it feels wonderful even though the fact that i could have had the toys i've been eyeing for years feels kinda sad... wonderful trumps sad though, so all is good... tomorrow i must call my other adopted daughter and find out how much she needs... and then, i'm gonna run away where nobody can find me until i save up and buy a toy for me... yeah, that's the ticket...

so what waggles your noodle today? :)