actually, what happened was...

raspy hasn't been working since he got back from the ukraine last october and for my wallet it's kind of remained halloween... and a few hours ago it got sadly ridiculous... precious showed up crying cuz... she hasn't paid her two credit cards since october or november and both were being charged at least $70 a month late and over the limit fees... last week she got a ticket for not re-registering her car which was due in december... and last night she was stopped again and got five tickets, no registration, tail lights, no insurance, no seat belt, and not changing her address on her license (since last august)... and then there's school projects she's skipping (which means failing) because she doesn't have the money for the supplies needed, or books, for that matter... and she never did get the wheels aligned so the new tires i bought her won't last as long as they could... what a day to go for a pap smear, aye?... maybe i shouldn't have talked her into going back this semester when she was considering taking the semester off, but who'd have thought rasputin would abandon her like this... i can understand enjoying time off and livinmg on unemployment insurance, but when you've comitted to putting your kid through college, it's kind of bad timing... so anyway, a bit more than $1000 later, her credit cards are under their limits and she has money for the tickets, car, school, food, and so on...

these moments feel lonelier than most others... yeah, that's life... tomorrow i've got to call minnie who just lost her job and needs help feeding the kid and paying rent and all the other life expenses... this is not starting out as a very good year financially, is it?... well, luckily i love giving, but it's getting out of hand... must take inventory soon... and re-read this entry a few times to remember that i really must learn how to set limits... are we laughing at me?... sheesh, and all :}