this way or that way

the choice tonight is to fall over and die (ok, i mean pass out, death might leave me alone one more day, in all probability... yeah, i'm in one of those laugh in the face of death and so and so irreverent whatever moods... mostly good though, so we'll see if any mostly dead stuff flows out of this... not feeling it rising at the moment, but it's been so long, we know there's a bubblingn cauldren in there... anyway, back to thereal) or drag myself out to watch west side story (and very likely fall asleep if i don't inject caffiene (and i mean more than chocolate) into the body, but i tire of drinking alone, alas, which is actually a good thing or i'd have died of some addiction long ago)... fatigue and nobody to go with shall probably make the decision for me... the wallet is happy about the choice too... but my heart, maria, but my heart... yeah, i know it's anita, i still prefer maria...

sigh :}

another busy workday (and workweek, for that matter) comes to an end and again i accomplished one goal and fixed a lot of things for a lot of others... two key forms others were rolling out today needed some tweaking so on and whatever, being the most proficient in MS Office software in the place means doing a lot of stuff for a lot of others and there's just not enough time to teach so i simply fix what's wrong and get back to my reports... must find more time to teach though cuz that is a performance improvement need for the hospital...

and laundry is spinning around and life goes on day after day... i am enjoying the freedom to sit naked and relax in peace and quiet in the privacy of my own space, ultimately... i may babble until i pass out (which could be any moment) the social drive that had me out running around night after night for a few months (or however long it was, the calendar knows) still nudges me and i am lonelier sometimes, but between softball and working extra hours, i'm also tired (crap, lack of regular exercise plays the biggest factor in fatigue... get to the gym tonight at least if nothing else)...

ummm, ok... that's life :)