habit

sometimes that is all i have to bring me back here to thereal, for all lamentation aside, no one shares thereal today, so if i do not bring myself back, there's no one else who will... without a partner in life, a committed relationship, there is no consistent illusion of sharing in thereal that breaks the natural aloneness and separation that is existence in these physical bodies in this life... you may be blessed for not knowing this all the time...

still, i trust my habit more than the illusion...

but that doesn't mean i don't want to illusion too... so work was busy, as usual, with an investigation deepening and requiring a root cause analysis.. and maybe we are starting to break through the lack of organization and cooperation bit... and then, home to eat and rest and rest i did as sleep came quickly after eating... a few hours later, here i am awake and writing...

habit...

and hope...