back from softball

why?... i mean, i could have stayed out and socialized, though i do have shopping and laundry to do and did not want to spend extra money or eat out again, so i shopped (crazy on a sunday afternoon... in the summertime, cuz it's always summertime down here, sorta) and now food is in the oven, laundry is in the washer, and i am here... was i expecting anything?... no, but i keep hoping (which is such a ridiculously irrational thing to do, i suppose)...

loneliness brings on all sorts of irrationalities...

softball... we sucked today, no hitting, i walked four, i think... might have been three... might have been too much practice pitching yesterday and too little sleep the past week, but then, i pitched great tuesday and thursday... cummulative fatigue, perhaps... might have been cuz i have a bruised and very sore right index finger tip and palm (thumb area) from catching a line drive during practice yesterday and a sore shin just below the knee from another line drive i did not catch before it slammed into my shin just below the knee... my shin-guards had slide around back... but reasons and excuses aren't worth much (we didn't score until the fourth and finally tied it 5-5 in the sixth to force overtime and then i lined out to lead of that extra inning and it got worse from there)... i didn't feel like the team or the coach was in the game much and in the fifth they put in another catcher who could throw the ball to me so i had to keep bending and chasing his throwback on every pitch, which tires the body out and breaks the pitching rhythm... still, excuses... i could done better and that goes for everyone...

see, nobody likes me because i suck (what's that about irrationalities?... actually, they'd love me if i would suck, it is a gay lesbian league after all... yeah, well, back to softball now)...

but there are more excuses, so... the umpire was the worst they have, consistently inconsistent and doesn't seem to like our team (could be racial prejudice as he sounds and appears quite redneck and most of our team is non-white - the only non-white team in the league... most teams are all white, come to think of it)... the other pitcher (who i was told is also an umpire on other days, which is surely a conflict of interests, but it's just a game, right) was getting a bigger strike zone, but that's challenging to prove and if we were hitting it wouldn't have mattered a bit... they only got five runs until the seventh when extra runners were put on base cuz time ran out and we were tied... they won mostly on defense and our lack of hitting, they simply played more consistently... and we hit poorly... i hit the ball hard today, but went 0-3... and we were down after the game, though our coach won his game (he plays in another division), so some good news... anyway, now, we are probably out of the running for first, second, or third (alas, our record is 3-4), but we'll hopefully have fun the last five games... and that's the sunday softball report for posterity (and anyone who cares)...

anybody out there? :)