both ends and the middle

as if i was a candle... always pretending to be self-replenishing, but deep down, knowing... so tonight we won 14-3 and we could have easily won by more and practically gave them the three runs in the last inning just to be good sports (at east some of us seemed to and i know i did)... they appeared to be a poor hitting team and i was on again, two games in a row this week... feels good to feel that much control of something in the physical world... they put me up second for a change... i walked three times and scored three times and grounded out once, the ground out was in the last inning and i stood at the plate watching the ball cuz it could have gone fair or foul (a dribbler) and it was called fair... it was 14-0 and if we scored, the game was over... i wanted to play more...

and work was another very long day of training as the training fair wound down... and i still have a few full days of work due monday and so, the work week will not end tomorrow, alas, the corporate responsibility days are here again (somehow, it should fit to the tune of happy days are here again, ya know?)... and minnie was discharged and i haven't heard any more... and life goes on with dreams gone by and no one to share the harry song or the story of a life and so much sadness gushes under the surface (what?... where?... oh peanuts, get a shell, and he giggles, fool, no pity please)... so life is busy at work,. fun at softball, alone at home...

and still, it turns me on...