Sunday, October 5, 2014

when extravagant becomes foolish

quite suddenly i am more than five thousand dollars short in the grand savings plan for retirement and all that future stuff that is a whole lot closer than it was when i first started this working life... now being rather carefree with cash and living in the moment so much, i've actually gone through savings rather completely a few or more times in this life... zeroing out the bank account and all material world stuff is not the wisest move in this life, but then, for better or worse (and other reasons), wisdom is not always the guiding force behind all decisions (i mean, just look around at humanity, aye?)... i don't know, maybe i like being completely free of everything material now and then and the freedom of living on the street (or a nice comfy park) somehow appeals to me on some cosmic level... anyway, this last chapter of visiting the working world and saving for retirement has hit a major bump and that was not planned, completely not planned, shockingly suddenly intensely not planned... so someone took five grand from my savings and what hurts most is i trust almost no one (but not no one) with access to my savings plan so the betrayal of such unconditional trust tears me apart once again as it has a few times in this life and that really sucks so much that i just want to stop the world and get off...

so for better or worse, i am once again on course for the street (or a nice comfy park) once this body no longer has the energy to work for money (or when i finally tire of it for the last time in this life) and like that gesethemene song says, it's harder when it comes at the hand of a friend... trusting people has not worked out well for me in this life...

but foolish is still better than alone, i guess, so i still don't want to change...

la la la...

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