focus on the fun

even as the home situation deteriorates back into the silent lies, usery, and denial that i no longer easily ignore (someday i may explain what i haven't already explained), the best i can do (short of hitting the road again) is focus on the fun and even if no one is interested (at least no one around here beyond acquaintances and distant teammates... had enough wah wah wah-ing yet?), the fantasy league mini-amazing performances happened and i surprisingly won both leagues but even better, the monday night softball team came back from 16-8 down in the bottom of the last inning to tie it and go into extra innings... in the bottom of the last inning i was at the plate with the winning run on first and i took a ball but the guy on first was thrown out trying to steal second... alas... extra innings saw the other team take a two run lead... they play kansas city (or some call it texas) rules in a tie after time expires and that means an automatic runner at second base and just one pitch... a ball and the batter walks, a strike and the batter is out, so it is a lot of pressure on the pitcher to through strikes and on the batter to swing unless there is no doubt that the pitch is a ball... i walked none, threw all strikes, and they scored two runs on a couple of hits... we got up and i lead off with a walk... a few batters later i scored and the guy behind me scored and we had the winning run on second... and after lots of long fly outs one of the power hitters finally burned an outfielder and we won 19-18... after losing two in the bottom of the last inning with this team, it was good to be on the other side of that collapse... fun...

good news is the coach moved me up to fifth cuz he noticed i went 5 for 5 in the first game and have only made two outs in the four games since... it's good to get a little respect... and have fun... especially when it is tough to smile these days... so what else is new?...

narf...