into the night again

and jackson got home and i still sense some softball team tensions as last night my game party (and her family visit) was interrupted by some drama from the drama queen of the team and tonight i hear he won't be back, which is a blessing for the team in just about every way... i just wish jackson wouldn't get so defensive and secondly, wish she'd understand my perspective better... anyway, we're just gonna go out and have fun and make decisions based on letting everybody play and trying to keep everyone happy rather than taking the game seriously and trying to win... while that tends to be frustrating for me, if that's what the team wants, so be it... i still don't think that's what the team really wants though as last season when i took myself out so someone else could play they were upset because he walked in runs and we blew a big lead and we lost that game... i'll just go with the flow and let other make the decisions...

and the air conditioner seems to have gone on the blink as it isn't cooling the apartment, so i opened the patio door and windows and we'll be hot and sticky tonight... the air conditioner was running non-stop all day and the place just got warmer by the hour, so i'm not wasting money on running an air conditioner any more until it's fixed... hopefully they can come out tomorrow as it was in the 90's today... alas, poor happiness must be locked in a room again, worse this time cuz it's gonna be quite hot until they get here...

and here we are, moving into the night again, should be sleeping, but wanting to share more... guess it's time to take getting more intimate with someone or some people more seriously again as the desire to share grows... the place is much more tidy, but still there are lots of boxes stacked in corners and much unpacked, much of it kitchen stuff... hopefully jackson will find time to sort through that stuff with me cuz i don't want to decide what to keep out and what to put into storage without her input, i mean, lots of the kitchen stuff belongs to and is used by her, after all...

so little time...

hope you are enjoying your night too :)