disappointments

two playoffs in a row in two different leagues and we blew both... the first last sunday i took myself out of the game because i lost my temper at the laziness on the field and the second one tonight the other pitcher started and pitched two innings and i went in for the third we were already down 8-5 and we were up 10-8 in the bottom of the sixth, but unfortunately my three shutout innings ended and we lost 11-10, tough way to go... they played better defense, our errors hurt us... i got two hits and scored twice, but still, tough loss...

work was, as each day this week was, non-stop busy with investigations and for the fourth day in a row i got none of my regular work done which means i am four days behind and that is just the way it goes... if my boss wants to fault me for not being able to do two jobs, work life will suck for a while, but if he decides to be fair, we shall see... meanwhile, major increases in respect and cooperation (hoping it will last) brought elation even in the midst of manic busy-ness and potential for the same old crap set-up come tomorrow... shhhhh, enjoy the elation of today (work time, at least)...

days like these always increase the loneliness...

sigh, at least i have my fantasies...

i’ll just go on adoring...