almost sleep

home at an almost normal hour (for the 9-5 game) so i cooked and ate and fell deeply asleep and woke in time to watch part of sarah conner which is a story i have enjoyed since the first terminator (though it was the second that made it a relatively permanent part of my entertainment psyche) and the storyline intrigues me enough to makes it worth wondering how the story will pan out and and summer glau interests libido ego enough to draw me back to watching... and then the dollhouse cuz i'd like to know if there's a decent storyline behind it's deep dark secret (these mystery secret conspiracy stories catch my attention for a while but until i find time to watch the entire series as a pbs marathon or on video or dvd as i did with the prisoner, i don't find the desire enough to match my schedule to the show when it is actually on the air... i watched the dead zone for a while for the same reason, and nicole deboer, and lost interest somewhere along the way)... it does help when there is a face or body that appeals to libido, but that's not mandatory...

anyway, a wonderful two hour nap was, well, wonderful... i choose this cuz it keeps me home on friday and lets me take care of me and write and clean and laundry and most of all, my vegetative relaxation unwind mind dump time... it doesn't help my social life, which is stalling again, but then, i partially bored with the routines and missed my time for myself cuz dreaming about sharing everything is better than not, or something like that...

the rest has become a necessary part of survival... that is the rest, as in relaxation, as opposed to the rest, as in everything else... everything else might be vital too, but i meant the other rest, the rest, you know?...

imagine if i was awake :)