can't win

yeah, of course can't doesn't exist, but it feels like it today as once again we did not have a full team show up... at least we had enough to not forfeit, but not enough to actually cover the whole field and yet, we still could have won if we had players who could catch the ball... or we didn't have four automatic outs in the line-up... we lost 11-9 in spite of giving the other team six to eight outs in three of the five innings we played and giving up three runs at home because our catcher could not catch the ball and we let easy ground balls become hits because our first baseman could not bend over and scoop balls... only three outfielders instead of four cost a few outs... all in all, we should have shut them out if we did not make any errors because they could not hit me today... at least the season is over... two teams who saw our team falling apart this year have asked me to join their team next year, but i am undecided... our coach wants to try to put a team together (he promises players who actually show up and who will proctice to get better)... jackson won't be able to play because she started a new job working sunday through thursday which is the saddest cut of all for both of us (ever though we have fights over the team because she wants to forgive and i want to kick the people who don't show up off the team)... can i have a distraction please?...

so alone...

narf...