another sleepless night

listening to some sad music and yet, is there still hope within the saddest of songs for me as i've always found in this life?... the question is not a good sign as the certainty fades with the passing years... sometimes i start at song four, maybe when i am sadder like tonight (hello darkness my old friend) or maybe just when i am opening myself more to the infinite possibilities and not just sailing on ego (which is all we can do inside, after all, especially alone)... speak your mind if you have a thought you'd like to share... i'd like to hear it... and after wandering over to the internet (what, where has facebook been, after all?... wide awake at 4am or independent views or change america or that dog, ma, even if you can find me or something worthwhile, even) for a few minutes, or half an hour, perhaps, i found smiles (but i still haven't found what i'm looking for)... and i will need to explore this one in more depth before i like, but i found this chinese medicine (no seriously, lol) there... or maybe i should check this out and on and on... and no, it is not porn, but it is nudity (and sad vaginas, really)...

so with all that being just the tip of the wandering i did tonight, i looked up zerg rush on google and played a zamboni game and sail off into the blue now... again...

nite nite...