not here, not there

one of the measures of growth and development of an independent person, even maturity (though i still feel a major cringe at the way that word is used by most people in our world because it is, like so many words, used as a judgment {delusional judgments are the most prevalent thinking error that human beings make in this life... such vast brains hampered by such stupid fears} and not a rational description), the measure of one's responsibility direct correlates to one's independence and ability to perceive a rational security within themselves and in this life... responsibility permeates all aspects of life in the daily, momentary choices we make, from whether (or how much) we recycle to sustain life on this planet to whether (or how much) we manage our finances and personal resources to whether (or how much) we balance our diet and exercise our bodies to maintain optimal health to whether (or how much) we pay attention to the details that matter to us and to others and to the world in our lives (and many other measures of responsibility can be defined if we wanted to continue defining measures of responsibility)... sadly, those who do not achieve personal responsibility become a burden on others and on the world in whatever way they choose to avoid personal responsibility (and it is an avoidance, whether conscious or not, it is a choice each individual makes in each moment they are alive)...

unfortunately, the average human reaches a fraction of the level of responsibility required for sustainable life on this planet and when a species makes that choice, that species becomes extinct... the facts are written (or carved or fossilized, to be more precise) in the history of the planet... each person comes to pivotal decisions in their lives and most do not make those decisions, but rather they let life's circumstances make those decisions for them... what (or how much) education to choose... what job to take... who to marry, if one marries... how many children to create or adopt... circumstance, rather than conscious decision, makes those choices for most people... and most marriages are not happy marriages (half formally end while many of those that don't formally end are unhealthy and unhappy)... children becomes burdens or abused in way too many families... jobs become despised for many or many just choose to become numb about how they feel about what they do for half of their waking hours... education is often directed by others or simply denied due to financial or social pressures... and so most people end up struggling to survive in unhappy lives, dependent on pretense and lies to not fall apart mentally and emotionally...

it is so sad... and sad to watch... and sad to share a life with someone at that average or lower level of responsibility in any area of life (for to one more responsible, average is quite irresponsible)...

and most people do...