Tuesday, October 19, 2010


inco muni cato (nano klaktu nickto?)... no really, i've been gone so long it feels like here to me... in the silence (if you have the time to follow that path to the current pause)... nobody seems to know, or notice, or care which me is here or where i might be... that's so depressing for the social being who hungers for sharing, intimacy, and some sense of belonging and being wanted... it's been so long since anyone wanted me, wanted to be around me, with me, inside me... and yet, for the child inside who always accepted the reality of aloneness that is this life, it's just the way it is... and the shared illusion of desire and wanting to the point of need is not as appealing as it once was, not appealing enough to trust another person to share that precarious balance at the moment... and it's been that way for a long long time... so i am lonely, and yet, i am here loving being and if no one understands and shares as i do, then it is what it is...

and that's (e)thereal too :)

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musical distractions

If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?

dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...


the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ...