somehow lost my way

if i ever had one... yeah, narf, giggle, and all that cartoony jazz... but in the real, i have wandered off into a foggy out-of-touchness that can only be described as a foggy out-of-touchness, or, in other words, an elsewhere less fun than most... it is mostly because i am so busy at work that i do not have time to think about much else and there's so much more important stuff in my head than work and even if there wasn't wall work and no play kills...

i don't want to die just yet, so i must remember stuff like celebrating john lennon's birthday and other more closer to my own real life stuff like how long have i been sleeping alone and how long has it been since i kissed someone and how long has it been since i simply took a week or a few days or even a day off just to relax and enjoy life and time without a clock or a thought about what must be done right now or in a few hours...

i need a few mental health day... or a few dozen, even...