really i'm not

back, that is... i may (probably, if i am successful in finding a bit more balance in my psyche and living life in thereal in real time and all that jazzification) return semi-regularly to slip an entry or few dozen in to catch up (or ketchup) and perhaps that will, as it has been known to do, lead to more babbling and madness or something like that, but somewhere in the babble the essence of thereal and stuff of life should somehow show through if you care enough to read the very best, or see, even...

you could always ask, just once, even...