bloated up again

though perhaps bloated down would be more accurate... tonight ought to be the wall, the turn around moment, for i've puffed up to discomfort once again for the first time in weeks... months, even... so reaffirmation of the benefits of dropping the weight and so on... and renewed resolve to forego the momentary bliss of overindulging taste buds and enjoy the long term effects of less bloat and lower blood pressures and the healthy feeling/experience...

but sleep... when will i make the time to sleep again?... this weekend i passed on two parties and a softball practice because i was on call and there were five admissions that meant more than ten hours at the hospital and i was already running on caffeine the last few days of the week... first time i used caffeine in weeks as well... definitely reaching a physical breaking point... perhaps the lack of contact with myself here (in writing) has much to do with the pattern... fool, make time for self or die standing (or falling suddenly)...

otherwise, all is well :}