Tuesday, December 1, 2020

Still Wide Awake

On the first of may (what can I say?... strangers, friends, it never ends). Did you notice I was gone? Did you find me somewhere else? Do you even know my name? Has this all just been a game? How long have you been on this journey? Time is relative, in case you forgot or didn't get the internal memo, or emo, for that matter. Are we doing this alone? Don't you know that you don't need to always be on your own? What?

Something change? Did you notice a story keeps growing on the right? Not to mention the entries that keep slipping in behind this one, in real time, just cuz love never ends, like Abbey Road's going to #1 after 50 years, Sgt Pepper would be so proud.

and in the end
the love you save
is equal to
the love you gave

...or something like that What? You want a theme song? Here's a theme song.

POW!   
aye?

The real theme song. You want real? Really? You may have missed it (if it ever began).

asleep?

Awake: Real true real, this blog actually ended years ago, shortly after Happiness died. He was such a beautiful soul, though there is no absolute end until the fingers can no longer type, so entries appear here and there as if they've always were, like the song that never ends, somewhere, and I will likely update this entry again and again, adding links, for posterity, for the depths, or doubts, even, and just for the fun of it, or whatever, and you can make of each one and all of them and everything as you see fit, or as Wesley said, as you wish (you too lol).

I mean, do you really want to know? :)

The fact is, so few do. Maybe no one does. Are you no one? Ah, we play with words to create hope where there may otherwise be none. Are you none?

If you came from TheReal(TM) you went (e)thereal (you're looking at it) but the babbler struck again after a while, so now... if you still want to know me and this life there is another place to go (see below) where I tear myself apart to censor myself to respect others fears while still doing my best to live my dream of finding the one and sharing everything completely openly and honestly... still here too. Still exposed.

I am here now in this new blog (and more, so much more), in case it matters. Narf.

No need to cry. I mean, just cuz of all the lonesome, ya know? If you remember. Narf.

You know narf is also a sigh, right?

Narf :)













PS... Hey blog family - you still matter to me :)













PPS... I am still awake, and still the same, even as everything constantly changes.










PPPS... Hey, what are all those links to the right there? (asked nonchalantly) lol :)











PPPPS... Maybe I'm a mazed lol. :)










PPPPPS... Write more, they say, and I do, almost every day, and then some. more? LOL you don't now the half of it. The question is, do you really want to? :)









Narf (yes, again) :)






















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Epilogue 1... the end is only the end if you believe in endings :)

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Write more, thats all I have to say. Literally, it seems as though
you relied on the video to make your point. You
clearly know what youre talking about, why throw away
your intelligence on just posting videos to your site when you could be giving us something enlightening to read?

candoor said...

Well... where have you been? I don't write in this blog anymore, except for the rare random post reflecting back from the future. maybe you mean the video(s) linked n the words, but was there even a video in this post? (asking that leads me to wonder if you are spamming or trolling... no offence meant, but maybe I should just ask for clarity - what do you mean? :)

I do have a few blogs (more than a hundred, actually), and a few focus on videos or images or something other than my words, but I'd estimate about 90% of my time in my blogs is spent writing words. I welcome you to read, respond, introduce yourself, and share more.

I hope you find more smiles than frowns here and everywhere you go in your life :)

Pernickety said...

Sometimes I like to randomly search for someone's name from the Blog Family and see where it takes me. After a few clicks here and there, it has landed me here. :) In the future 2020 which is not so futuristic in a few weeks. Well, this jump down the cyber rabbit hole always makes me happy, when I stumble upon one of your blogs and words I haven't seen before. Lots of words in my head lately that are itching to get out in some Blog but self-censoring has gotten bad recently. Hugs to you!

candoor said...

And when I finally check email and fond this comment waiting, I smile. Somehow I've accepted drowning in SPAM and losing timely comments and connections, alas, but time s relative and today's smile feels as good as ever :)

Yes, the future date keeps this entry the first entry you see when visiting this blog. I slip an entry in "behind" this now and then, when the muses call, but this blog is yesterday's daily and I write mostly in today's daily (top right linkage). It is a big yay to hear from you :)

This blog is a monument to a chapter of this life and I'm in another chapter now, but I like revisiting and planing some new flowers every now and then.

Happy hugs for the good feeling, comforting hugs for the self-censoring. I think I've forgotten how to self-censor, or maybe I tried to learn how and simply failed miserably lol. I probably repeat myself repeatedly, but redundancy has never stopped me from continuing to get use words to naked online as I constantly babble on about whatever and myself.

Whatever is often more interesting lol lam :)

I look for your name now and then and don't find anything except an old site or two, so do let me know if you start writing for readers again. I'll be a reader :)

Merry Happy every day - Take care of you and thanks for keeping in touch.



Catch up (and know more)

musical distractions

If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?

dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...

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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

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