suicidal patterns

separating from human contact for a few days and focusing on health and caring for myself and dropping some weight and putting the body through the shock of withdrawal from the high sugar high caffeine high fat high carb diet to a healthier balance and then sliding back into a social meal and party a few days later and re-initiating the unhealthy triggers and stupid, of course stupid, but still so much fun...

so home from a semi-game night (being that games were not played much, but fun still) and before that, much more fun at the final episode (for now at least) in the harry potter series in i-max 3d and the only thing better would have been going with really close potter-head friends but going with people i knew was good too and the movie was no disappointment in spire of having to remove much of the story from the very long book... well done and wish you were here :)

emptied the storage before the movie so a busy day and tired yet wired and lonely cuz of all the excitement shared, but not shared deeply, and we've heard that song before, yeah, yeah, yeah... who loves you baby?... but it's not about what's missing (not that pretending nothing's missing is good either), it's about what is shared and making the most of the caring and sharing and fun available so keep giving and stay strong, stay positive, stay open, stay full of giggles and fun and sooner or later the come around will come around... gotta believe, right?...

hope you make your fun even more fun too :)