waking groggy again

with a fatigue and caffeine withdrawal frontal lobe headache, the body and mind wakes groggy again in spite of about nine hours sleep with just one bathroom break after a four hour cycle... drinking a half gallon of water last night just before bed and another half gallon earlier in the evening to start the caffeine cleansing much needed after a long week of pushing the drug into the system in order to be alert and as cognitively clear as possible on less than four hours sleep a night and up to sixteen hours focus at meetings and in detailed reports, well, the water must flow... the ear is powerfully loud, blood pressure must be quite high, the head hurts, body aches a bit... a few hours of relaxing before softball practice with a brand new team, far from at my best, but hey, it's recreation and first impressions can be very overrated in this ultra-superficial world where the depth and meaning i seek is seldom shared at any impression... scattered thoughts, still, the peaceful bliss holds up under and around and over and above and below and that's what it's all about (hope you get it too :)

later, perhaps, more :)