sometimes frustration

yeah, me, in spite of the fact that you would never believe it could possible happen given how practically perfect i am in every way being so purely positive and innocently optimistic and all that wonderful child-like splendor in the grass or breakfast at tiffany’s or butterflies are free or something like that , i too can slip into the fool’s gold of negativity from time to time and experience (brace yourselves now) frustration…

i know, unbelievable…

perhaps there should be some dramatic music now as that seemed a bit like the introduction of a melodrama emo-rich tv series or something… there are a million frustrations in the naked city, ya know?... why doesn’t anybody care about me or mine? (da da duh)…

headache, belly bloat, softball team that makes a couple of dozen errors every game, an unappreciative, overbearing, micromanaging boss, emo neediness and financial neediness and all sorts of neediness all around me… the headache and belly bloat from indulging the taste buds (emo eating feels so good going down, ya know?) is momentary discomfort… as for softball, a couple of dozen error and some horrible umpiring later, i realized i should have skipped the afternoon game too... it's sad when i can't trust anybody on the team to catch a ball hit or thrown or just to throw the ball straight... but anyway, the softball team is a passing burp in the emotional life… the boss is a daily challenge that is mostly worth it cuz i love the job and even enjoy the challenge of negotiating his personality… the deeper longer harder (oh baby) drama of this life is that it is challenging to just keep giving all the time and not having someone to lean on, to depend on, to share the load… and even though that’s been life as i’ve known it from the very start, it’s challenging and yes, frustrating, sometimes…

yeah, the real is not always sweet and shiny, and still i am somehow amused... i mean, i was really looking forward to the harry potter marathon (alas, we can't always get what we want, even if we try sometimes, but still, someday my princess will come, la la la)...

must be some sort of madness, aye? :}