call me irresponsible

woke up thinking of work, but not just the job i have today, all the works i've ever worked including war games in the military and exterminating bugs and number crunching and counseling and even some leisure games and works worked for no money, the mind dreams on (and the music comes and goes, but always plays somewhere inside), with or without aerosmith playing in the background… and a bit of stress over wondering if i am being nudged out woke me as well… but today is a day off and i really must clear my head (what?... without drugs?... darn, why can’t they just legalize them all so non-drinkers can have what all the rest have in their alcohol, aye?)…

obviously the few days rushing through the softball tournament did not do enough head-clearing, so i carry the work with me now (idjit) and that may mean it is time to consider another change of profession or lifestyle or something like that… it would be much less stressful if i did not deplete my savings the last few months…

and on that note, i just returned from wandering the financial empire, including credit cards and rewards stuff, and while the savings has not replenished itself overnight (the dollars must be wearing condoms, aye?), the good news is it does not look like it’s going down too much more this month and i have a free round trip flight on southwest and another for $50 if i want to bring someone or take two trips myself… too bad southwest doesn’t fly to hawaii, i might not need the return… ah, life is amusing…