trimming more fat

salad, chicken, clams, fat free mayo, and three hundred fifty calories of chocolate for dessert... approximately nine hundred calories in all... yes, ideally for weight loss leaving the 350 calories of chocolate out would have been wise, but hey, a slower sweeter road is not wrong, it is just slower and sweeter... all that food put me to sleep (or was it the long week with minimal sleep?... both, of course) for a few hours and here we are, semi-groggy and semi-euphoric... did i mention the weight dropped to 195.8 as a peak low?... it was 196 when i got home tonight... so the weight loss has slowed, which makes it tougher to stay on the path, but probably healthier for the heart and major organs... still not exercising more than the softball, which is keeping the weight loss at an even slower pace, again testing my patience and probably better for the body... stop being so lazy and get on the road again, yeah, and to the gym again, yeah, and pick up the weights again, yeah... so what else is new?...

still not de-cluttering any more the last few weeks... so the living room remains cluttered and i am still sleeping on the couch because the violation of theft of thousands has still not been processed and resolved so i hide nothing and see how much trust i see reason to give again... not talking about it doesn't help... yeah, i don't talk about it much, privacy, what's the point by myself, blah blah blah...

staying alone (and the clutter helps that) for the same old reasons, people are people and not quite ready for honesty, truths, or my perspective on things... i tire of explaining lately... wonder if drugs would help...

irreverent to the end, love me...

narf :)