busy weekend, sorta

not that i did a whole lot, especially yesterday when i lounged around all day napping and watching some tv (dvr and college football) as jackson was out all day doing stuff... a lot of time was spent online commenting on news and facebook posts this week as the blah blah blah will show (that blah blah blah link is to the blog that lists links to most of the writing i do each month, including some of the comments i leave around the web... the only title comments get on that link list is blah and september had a lot of blah, saturday too)...

sunday, which would be today, was hanging with jackson and playing softball and it was definitely not a good softball day... the team did not show up and it costs dearly as we lost 6-3 to one of the undefeated teams which leaves us now with a 5-2 record and a slim chance of taking first place as we likely dropped to fifth place or lower with this loss... it was a game we should have easily won, but nobody was hitting (including me, i didn't get to the batting cages before the game and was stiff and not ready to hit or play, my bad, but it seems everybody else was even worse and the outfield was asleep most of the game... the coaches don't pay attention enough to notice the lazy play and tells them they played good defense, which is not true at all as all of the 6 runs the other team scored would not have scored if we played good defence, alas, which is frustrating)...

the afternoon game was a forfeit, the other team didn't show up... we scrimmaged and we were throwing the ball all around and not taking it seriously, so we lost the scrimmage big... unfortunately, though, we hit very poorly as well which is not good cuz we should have at least practiced our hitting seriously and we have been hitting very poorly the last few games... so it was not a good softball day...

jackson has a good excuse, unfortunately, as her relationship seems to be finally officially definitely over and she's dealing with the heartbreak and being me, empathic, that is, it hurts around here these days... yesterday and today the finality may have finally hit her and that is mostly what made this weekend a challenge and what occupied most of my time (cuz she's my best friend and i am gonna sit with her quietly away from the computer or anything else as much as she needs it as she works her way through it)... it could be a very tough week, but, sigh, this too shall pass... she's still the beautiful person she is and deserves to be loved and will be loved again...

i am thankful for this writing place... as you know, unless this is your first time here, writing lets the sad out... and i absorb sadness from those i love so they can let their sad out and there is most likely a lot more sadness coming which reminds me just how thankful i am for this writing place and my way of releasing emotion through words... it is easier when it is someone else's sadness, true, but even when it is my own, i feel much better after releasing the emotion into words... it is cathartic... meditative... transcendental... or something like that :}

i hope you find your way to your smile too :)