yeah, i finally decided to eat... soup with some pasta... appetite is not much there, but eating is kind of important so i did... apparently i have felt this coming all week as i was dragging around in the blah blah blahs (yeah, that's the way to paint the target around where the arrow lands lol lam sigh)... the roller coaster of uncertainty and insecurity and did i mention uncertainty shakes another chair out from under me and we are flying off the tracks once again, so what else can i do but laugh at myself and enjoy the ride... and i am still loving you for being here, now more than ever...
gotta vent it out i suppose... and let it go... soup :}
Friday, November 30, 2012
late dinner, later life
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- hugs are good
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- and so the evening goes
- cute but infected
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- the day slows quickly
- i wanna know
- what was that?
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- when i am sleeping
- not fair
- home for happiness
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- you don't have to be an einstein to love bagels
- day three, day two
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dumb poll (above), smart responders
all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...
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the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)
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2 comments:
*hug* i am really sorry you have to go through this unemployment thing yet again. i know you knew from the start that this gig might be temporary, but still it sucks for them to keep saying that they might come up with another position for you, blah, blah, blah, you're doing great and then kiss, kiss, bang, bang, they kick you out the door. the corporate game sucks big time. i really hope you can find a stable job with benefits and can leave behind this period of great uncertainty. thank you for continuing to write and for your unending optimism.
thanks so very muchness my friend... everything is relative... i still have more choices and opportunities and reasons to be optimism than most people on this planet and no matter how dark the clouds of depression seem and no matter how heavy the weight of helplessness and fear of homelessness might get, i still know i am a fool for throwing a pity-party for long - for i have survived the streets once, twice maybe even, and i even enjoyed much of that experience for in a very real way it is so freeing, but also i know i am not close to that now, just bummed over the inconvenience of being unemployed and sad that my worth is not appreciated or respected as much as i'd like it do be...
yes, the corporate games... and the people who get caught up in them forget their humanity and lose their sensitivity and can ignore their cruelty and it is nothing new to me... it just sucks as it always does when it is so in the face...
*hug* my friend... i have every intention of enjoying the end of times promised by the mayan calendar and the day after that too without the burden of having to go to work, yes, i intend to take december off and hopefully find new employement in the first quarter of 2013... 13, maybe a lucky number for me... staying positive :)
and most seriously, your caring helps more than you know :)
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