alases and laughter

life is work and the video game, though last night a friend and i went out for sushi and plum wine... i forgot how much i like plum wine... still is alcohol though and i am still not an alcohol fan, but it is so yummy... so was the sushi... and the friend, though she was a very sad girl as she is done with love in a profoundly seriously final way (just staring through teary eyes at the obvious truth that no one can predict the future), alas... we can choose the path we walk and choosing to be alone is one path, somehow i am on it myself, so there is a profound connection or sorts and for a moment thinking really got me sad too (and i didn't even start digging into my lonelies and misfortunes of the heart, sigh, it has been quite a while since i did... and i got to thinking for a fleeting moment or two about how alone i am and wow, emotions are heavy... so why am i still laughing? (must be that sweet madness that has kept me free of forced medical care all these years... lol lam laa narf :)

seriously though, wow... i miss the roller coaster... i think :)