just relaxing

there is probably lots i could do, especially around this place (hey, i did start a laundry), but today will be mostly relaxing... lots of softball over the weekend, i might motivate myself to run later, but everybody i know is working and this is the last day off so i shall indulge...

an amazingly poor showing in softball this week, seven games and we were close in every game but i don't think there was one win now that i look back... yeah, i'm not sure, i play to play so much more than i play to win, but every game was a give-away by errors and nobody scored more than 9 runs against us, but my teams average score was around 3, which is pathetic in softball... some weeks are like that (but it sure would be sweet to have one team that actually has the basic skills at all positions and actually practices and plays like they want to win, ya know :)

fun anyway and fills the social void... if i had a softball partner, activity partner, best friend sharing it all then winning and losing wouldn't matter but on my own it is more fun to win than lose cuz it provides that illusion of success through caring about each other as a team, or something like that... next weekend i'll be missing parties (halloween) and softball cuz i have concerts to go to (nobody to go with to the josh groban concert, alas, nobody i know is into groban)...

feeling the lonelies, but feeling euphoric too cuz days off are so rare and rest is so sweet :)