find myself awake

with softball on my mind... maybe i said too much (haven't said enough) and should have vented in a private place that only the closest friends can read, but they are called meaningless complaints, public or not, because i don't think anybody reads them and they change nothing outside of me (but they are enormously helpful for me as they vent frustration and organize thinking and lead to logical happy decisions, so like it or not, i write... after all, i write first for myself and share with anyone who cares and communicate when someone indicates they want to and most of the time no one does, but just in case you wanted to know me, the words are out here...

another way to hope to find friends, ya know? :)

gonna rest today, maybe some laundry and cleaning and probably a nap... softball later as the team we played yesterday needs me to fill in for their pitcher... i play with some of them thursday nights and am more friendly with them than with most of my sunday team (as i said {if you follow links and read me elsewhere}, we are all one big softball family... i play in five different leagues and have played in all the leagues around town and the closest softball friends are usually spread out as they may be a few from each team... one of these years i'll see about putting them all together :)

and now, as i wipe some bleariness from my eyes, the excitement of a day off begins :)