watching the bulls

mostly cuz it's habit cuz jackson is a chicago fan, but i watch alone tonight cuz jackson is down south and she's either partying or absorbed in the game cuz i haven't heard from her even though the bulls are frustrating... maybe she doesn't want to hear me say they need a new coach... they should have won this game, but the coach burnt out his best players and let one player, the league mvp, play one on one ball too often... that is boring, losing basketball... and he is showing he is no mvp... basketball is a team game, chicago does not play team ball...

wondering why i didn't let myself fall asleep when i started to a few hours ago, and then i look at happiness and there's my answer... so tired though... alas, happiness is waiting to go out (i am remembering why i never got another dog, so much tied to home responsibility if you're fair to the dog... i mean, five minute walks twice a day is not nearly healthy... so being me, happiness has had a lot of my time with jackson away)... lonelier tonight too...

being as independent and self-contained as i am, it is so easy to feel like nobody cares in this life... but i care, and that's enough in the end... remember that, ya hear? :)

hope you find what you're looking for (me too :)