wasting away in grandville

today was a hyperbolic roller coaster, whatever that means... short wave roller coaster, yup, up and down and up nd down many times in short spans... too much work at work, much got done, more to do, much got done, more to do, nver satisfied, yet much done and then, left early with jackson to check on the apartment we were going to get and poof, the place suddenly was not as sweet as it seemed, smaller, less green, lured in to see the apartment we asked for if it became available and it was not what we asked for and worst of all, more than a hundred dollar more than it was, boo, bummer, we sat and talked and then, let's try next door again... the expensive one?... yes, let's check it out... after all, this one isn't a bargain anymore... ok...

we went next door and woah, for just $60 more a month almost the perfect apartment... so why didn't we sign?... well, first cuz we didn't see it... it was occupied and coming available early february if the current occupant vacates on time... but if someone else comes along as snatches it up, it's gone... but it is more than we wanted to spend... and yet, if we could have seen it...

and then softball practice... so tired, but rah rah team... twinge in the other hamstring while swinging at the batting cages, too much sitting, not enough stretching, not enough sleep, not enough regular exercise, aging, fatigue, woah is me... hit ok, up again... and then, surprise scrimmage against the "c" team... we are a "d" team, though we won the "d" championship, we are no "c" team... the worst "c" team beat us big for the second time in a row, alas, and yet the team may be moving up to the "c" division... biting off more than they can chew, for sure, but who can understand the male ego... i'll go along cuz they need their pitcher and i'm crazy enough to risk my neck for a good challenge... gonna get a cup and mouth guard, that's for sure...

hit the ball well during the scrimmage... up again... no running though, only a trot to be sure the hamstrings are no worse for the tournament this weekend… stopped at third on one hit that running would have been a home run, flying high, hitting well… pitching well, lots of errors around me, how could these guys think they could be a “c” team… hope they learn to enjoy losing cuz it’s gonna be a while before we aren’t beaten big and they do so get down when they lose… but we are family, I hear, and I do so want family… love love love, I am so tired, flying high, so tired… so much work to do, no time to get it done… yet must sleep for the tournament so I don’t hurt this body… it’s going to be an interesting next six days… no partner to share it, the big bummer, missing the sharing, but you're reading, right?... ah, the mad laughter of the deluded child sings me to sleep tonight...

how do I enjoy this as much as I do? :)

ah, love my roller coasters :)