it's more than we asked for

the job, the number of entries, the missing pieces of the puzzle of my past (and present, for that matter... it's all about love)... and today, more than we asked for, whatever may be happening later on... the car?... hopefully the rental has been turned in, but my guess is that i will pay for another few days, or week, because the plans never did actually happen cuz it just was not anyone's priority... and jackson's car may come back sometime today, but when is uncertain as sanford drove it back to her house rather than leave it here and have me or someone else drive her back to her house... can we smell possessiveness?... she either did not know i was going to start using jackson's car or she does not want me to, so i cancelled ride to the rental place for the morning and that may mean another $200+ out of my pocket cuz jackson rarely had time to drive me car shopping in the past six to eight weeks and i did not ask anyone else to... kinda baffled as to why jackson did not make time though... and kinda hurt too, considering all i do for her and how much it's cost me to rent the car (not to mention how much it's cost me to live with her)....

oh stop whining, she is the friend she is and i have no right to ask for or expect any more... in so many other ways and paths in this life i find more than i ask for and it is that and there my focus should and shall remain... the positivity... the perspective... the power to create a smile...

it must be getting late, the earwax is calling...

narf, aye? :)