waking before noon

this life of leisure is quite restful, though i feel a bit bloated today because i ate an after midnight dinner last night rich in fats (herring and sour cream)... oatmeal and flax seed for breakfast, whenever i get a little hungry (maybe an hour or two)... and get out to jog/walk at least a 2.5k today... cuz it is really getting late, alas...

and what is the date?... a day away from the... oh, this is sad... i look up solstice and find the first page is full of advertisements for sunglasses... i look up equinox and find a similar commercial override of information for cars and other stuff... i wonder if there is a search engine that has a no advertising filter... maybe an encyclopedia or wiki or dictionary... alas, the culture is so polluted with consumerism, we have forgotten the faces of our fathers, as roland would say...

though this curiosity might have some merit...

so scrolling down the page i find more pertinent information and of course i ask about the date because the mayan calendar ends tomorrow and there is all sorts of thoughts and prohesies and worries about the world ending (because without a human calendar keeping track of time, how can the world go on, right?... ahem)...

anyway, it would be nice to see some sort of enlightenment happen tomorrow at 11:12 (am) (or any time for that matter, really) and i shall set an alarm just to experience the moment cuz i am a very hopeful and curious being, ya know?...

in the pause

and because the dream of sharing (hopelessly hopeful romantic that i am) never ends and barely pauses and never forgets (like horton) and requires commitment and actions, i continue this habit of reaching for the keyboard in the few moments while dinner is cooking or while drying after a shower or while just sitting between activities for a few moments, as i just returned from work and have a bit of time before heading out form softball...

if you do not understand, that's ok, it is a certain form of madness to be so dedicated to a dream, quixotic suspense, perplexing or laughable, folish or noble, it all depends on your perspective... from my perspective, with no better dream to dream and no better way to maintain the readiness (and nothing much better to do in these few moments), i continue to stop by here to remind myself and anyone who cares that i care and want to share (and know how) and i feel how precious the momenta are, in the pause...

may you feel your moments pass and fill them with something you love :)