home and catching up

it's a wonderful day... an adorable day... a long exciting day... lots of walking and feeling physically great... everything went as well as any day at disney could... jane's influence was beautiful as usual... what can i say, fun is fun, a friend is a friend, disney is disney, and the day was wonderful...

yesterday was a wonderful day alone exploring inside memories and me all by myself, loved it and wrote more entries than any other day, ever, since being online...

today was a wonderful day not alone outside in the fresh air and world sharing with a fantastic person and great friend... loved today too and the balance is giddy good... time to unwind, catch up on the day (previous entries, though so many of the fun details were probably left out), and sit back and enjoy the glow :)

heading to hollywood

the kid is out and loving every minute of it... we did everything in the front of epcot except the spaceship one and visited most of the countries around the lake and got lots of exercise and found fun everywhere... my favorite park character from long ago, figment, sang the imagination song and it's bouncing around my head over and over and i love it... so many memories... fun fun fun :)

and now we are off to hollywood... wish you were here :)

bouncing around

like tigger and chip and dale and being the little kid i am the day is revving up in spite of the fatigue from lack of sleep... bouncing around in the beautiful weather, memories stirring, smiles widening, gonna coffee caffeinate the brain and body today and bounce around even more...

we are having fun :)

a disney day

headed to jane's house so her roommie (and a mutual friend) bear could get us into disney for the day (for free, it's good to have friends who work at disney) and we are excited to enjoy a disney day... epcot to start and probably hollywood studios later and while jane packed healthy food for us (she is such a healthy influence... too bad she lives so far away (40 minutes) and we don't spend more time together cuz i'd probably be thinner, fitter, and healthier if we hung out more... anyway, a fun day at disney ahead...

yay for fun and friends :)

wow, see?... a poll!

referencing the previous title (not necessarily the entry though) that sleep is good cuz just look over on the right and see the newest feature i tried out here in this blog, a poll... i am still deciding if multiple answers are allowed and how long the poll will stay open and whether it will stay in the side bar (cuz the side bar is way too long for a this blog) but decisions decisions can wait until they are made, for now, there's a new feature, a poll...

i expect nobody to use it because i suspect nobody reads this regularly and this entry announcing it will blink into the archive any moment now and i believe most entries here are never read by human eyes, but hey, that is the real, diggidy? (as in, get it>?, however updated and expanded for the new millenium with a little help from a cartoon friend and the writers and Seth, who is as constant an influence in this life as any of the other hundred fifty or so constant influences who'v invaded my brain (with and without unilateral permission... is unilateral the right word there?... someday this, and millions of other rhetorical, semi-rhetorical, quasi-rhetorical, and actual real questions will be answers, but for now, there's a poll!... diggidy?)...

all this cuz i got a reasonably decent night of sleep?... i did wake at the four hours marks and when the phone rang, which was a lot this morning, but still, sleep has not had the positive effect it used to have for the last year or so and i was concerned that the over-tired effect of long-term sleep-deprivation (and overuse of hyphens) may have degenerated the brain cells to the point where they will not regenerate fully ever again, or at least not until several days/weeks/months/years or whatever period of time required is taken/given to sleep in heavenly sleep for as long as necessary to rejuvenate (or regenerate, i believe i mean regenerate cuz i'm not sure rejuvenate is actually possible, but that will require experimentation and more, precise discussion and agreement of definitions, to be decided at a later date)...

stop babbling here now!

home again (diggidy?)

whatever it means, i found the aches from this morning fade away after eating lunch, which was a big pile of raw spinach, a few ounces of black beans and a few ounces of chick peas and four cherry tomatoes and five or six broccoli tops and later in the afternoon, some ice tea (with splenda)... crazy, but the protein drink i found (50 calories, 10 gm protein, 16 ounces) must have rebuilt the muscles that were aching like crazy this morning (omigosh, it's a miracle, i am still getting younger... no wonder i keep giggling)...

i got home from softball about three hours ago (we won, finally, 11-9... i struck out at least six... struck out the side one inning... they still hit well when they were not striking out... we hit well in the first inning scoring 6 (i made the last out with a runner on third, sucks to be me that inning... i drove in the last two runs though with a bases loaded two out single to right, so i made up for the first inning fart... and anyway, i find (getting home) a notice that the fire marshall is due for an inspection on wednesday, so i decided to do two loads of laundry while cleaning and rearranging boxes (sort of unpacking a little_ and wow, there's a lot more room in this place now... a few more hours after the movie tomorrow (yeah, tomorrow night it's a movie with friends) and the place might even look more like an apartment than a storage garage... amazing, huh?... who knows what might come next :)

i should probably sleep now... though craig fergie is on... what is most amazing is i didn't talk myself into eating something... not even a 120 calorie vegetable soup that called out my name when i put yesterday's shopping away... i still didn't have time to shop more today, which might suck because publix (supermarket) had a seriously decent sale on veggies yesterday,.. i'm so not frugal these days... just one more thing somebody can save me from myself about, cha know... i've become so human, aye?...

and yet, i still want you to know (even if i am not exactly sure why all the time)... hope you are enjoying your night :)

life is a song

at the risk of repeating myself (risk?... what a silly saying), the song is on repeat in my brain (it happens now and then when a song catches my imagination... and it helps when there's a person or performance or visual or a video that inspires laughter or some other memorable emotion... the more affected the effect {or effected the affect}, the long it lasts and the longest lasting end up in my top hundred or higher of all time, which i'll tell you about one day if you are into music, want to know me, and are too lazy to find it in my web world yourself, nyuk, nyuk), so you might as well get used to it cuz it's playing all around me for the moment...

meanwhile, life goes on... how's yours? :)

just enjoy the show

sometimes a song and a visual personality catches my attention and i find myself bouncing or bopping to the rhythm and feeling the melody and hearing the words singing in my head and seeing the smiling and laughing the giggling and feeling the comfort inside and outside and that, my friends, is love... so i am in love again, naturally... you would be too, if you were me... and if you are too, then maybe you are (close enough to play in the secret garden with me)...

who needs (e)thereal when there's love :)

make it so! :)

still awake?

if you read my previous entries here (you do, don't you?... at least a few of you must have found this place after all the bread crumbs and obvious please for attention i've left in all my other online writing spots), and especially the last (entry) in which several million brain cells were misfiring all at ones, you might have noticed that i was tired (ah, the love of understatement soars to new heights) and so the question posed here is not merely still awake? but most much more emphatically why in the hell are you still awake?...

i read this and related:

Is there anybody like me out there or anywhere? What I mean is, enough like me to relate enough to connect on enough levels and in enough ways to actually share life and the occasional, or even daily genuine comfortable lingering hug, I mean, anybody? How about around here? It's been a while.

yes, well, so many things to do, and yet, so many things to explore... i've not done any of the physical things that really ought to be done before i fly out of here tomorrow and i've not slept... i've been exploring online... lonely?... mostly... but i've also been exploring laptops and nettops cuz i did not want to take this big heavy monster with me this time... but buying one should be researched, a voice in my head says... and still, i have no idea which is best for my needs, mostly... i have an alarm set for 3am, 4am, 5am, and 7am... if i sleep until 7am, most of what needs to be done will not get done and that's bad news...

taking care of myself all by myself is a very time-consuming job (maybe i should spend less time laughing at myself?... no, that must not move any further down the priority list that i have yet to actually make than it already might have had i made the list)... who cares?... another voice calls out from the darkness... and nobody answers...

'cept me... yay for me... i might do the dishes now... and empty the car... those two are must-dos... and forget laundry, i'll just pick up new clothes at some walmart on the way to the airport or in franklin... maybe they'll have different cheap clothes in tennessee so i don't look like everyone else around here who buys cheap clothes... there's a brainstorm, aye?... the laptop?... we shall see... or more accurately, perhaps, i shall see...

i don't want to be lonely anymore... maybe i'll buy a macbook pro... hello... hello... is this thing on? :}

four baker acts

as if the weekend wasn't busy enough, another BA52 arrived while i was doing the first three assessments and so i just finished and will be heading from the ucf side of town (where i live and work) to mt. dora (you can google the trip if you just love me so much you want to know everything or simply have the time and are curious) for the lucky charms (thursday night softball, not work team) party and i probably will not be home until sunday night...

but so much must be done before the trip to tennessee... laundry, dishes, cleanup, clean out the car, an hour or two at work in the morning, and something called rest too... and i still need to make reservations for a place to stay and transportation in franklin... must prioritize as not all of it is getting done... now i need time to prioritize... ah, if only there was someone here to share this manic paced wonderful life, the laughter would be exponentially multiplied...

enjoy your life too (even if you don't have time to notice :)

you're missing it

the softball tournament and all the fun of this life in thereal, that is... where are you and where have you been?... not stopping by for give minutes a day to see i am alive and well and happily brief in my summary of the day like a normal diary, unless you are hiding out there waiting for the right moment, like for me to complain that you are so silent i don't even know if you are there or if you care or what?...

of course i am not here either and this entry is automatically uploaded while i am out freezing having much fun at the softball tournament... the first game tournament is about to begin so i'lll check in later tonight... i hope we are winning... and i know you are routing us on, if you knew and were here, so thanks for the love :)

i'll update with real time thereal tonight when i get home (as i fall asleep... unless we are done and eliminated and have mo games tomorrow, in which case i'll probably attempt to stay awake and write, but might nod off anyway)... i hope you are having too much fun to even pause a moment to send up a daily smoke signal... you are loved, you are missed, and i don't even feel dissed (i am incorrigible, though, still, after all these years)...

woah, wow, where, when?...

still awake in the same awake period i was awake in some 23ish hours ago in the previous entry, just getting home for the first time, wishing there was something more exciting to keep me out this late, but still plenty to enjoy (even singing hello muddah, hello faddah in a sleepy duet... yes, i have an odd friend or few)... and pizza and snacks and soda and chocolate and well, a party pig out...

and to think, i was blurry 23 hours ago... and still, the buzz lingers, the energy begs for more time and the mind bounces around in the fog loving the experience of being alive and feeling this semi-conscious play... you so do not know what you are missing being outside of my head... and sometimes, neither do it...

make today a fantastic day and see you later :)

wakey wakey

what?... what the heck is wakey wakey?... who am i, anyway?... ah yes, there's precious on the phone waking me as planned to go out to buy her tires for her car... so here we are, dripping dry, or drying the drip, shower shave and out the door... gonna spend a little more... that seems what i'm living for... luckily i don't keep score... or something like that...

and she's buying a stairway to... where ever... but gilda, darling, leave me my time to dream and rhyme, does anybody remember dreaming?...

ah yes, and laughter... the sweet elixir... that is what life is truly all about, and what i am living for... and babble, don't forget the babbler, nooo, mustn't forget the babble (thank you dan and julia, but don't cut your finger off on my account)... ah, love the laughter... and you, love you... make it a wonderful day :)

sleep?... probably not today

and so i stayed up all night catching up on the pop culture a bit (see the pop video blog and behind the candoor for more detail) and now, i lay me down to sleep and expect a call from precious and/or rasputin at any monet, or moment, even...

and fried onion rings and assorted nuts (deluxe) and m&ms kept me company tonight... so the bloat, yes the bloat, oh the bloat is back - stone cold sober and a natural fact... alas, nobody gives me anything better to do with my mouth through the night...

and there's still so much more babbling to sort through and do... alas, at least i have monday off too... if you are interested in my perverse babble, there's more out there to read... otherwise, i hope you enjoyed a wonderful night...

woke up, and went to bed...

no need to drag a comb across my head, aye?... yeah, well, anyway, four hours was enough for this first sleep of the new year it seems and i laid there in bed comfy and warm and giggly (cuz beds do that to me, in case you never knew... if you ever wanted proof that the child inside is alive and well, much more than the excitement over food could ever demonstrate, just be there when i actually lay down under covers to welcome sleep) and as occasionally happens, the excitement woke me up so the writer wrote (cuz excitement does that to me, in case you haven't noticed)... yeah, we're getting to thereal :)

so i finally finished (and uploaded) the expansion of the RealTime™ entry that i mentioned was in progress behind the candoor in the RealTime™ entry to which i refer right here in this sentence (and entry) that provides the clues to the actual actions that occurred in thereal since waking and during that expansion, another rhyme slipped out that seemed to fit in the be with me garden so that is where it was uploaded and then, here we are…

so what now, new year? (and the excitement continues to build) :)

for now, a workout at the gym (yay)... hope your day is a yay too :)

blink again, evening

amazing, isn't it?... yeah, i know, the logic escapes us fools blogging away day after day for one or two crumbs a week, but i know you're out there (and i love my delusions and posterity finds me amusing, but that's gonna take a thousand years or a few to be seen, so just sit back, relax, and enjoy the show, even the parts you miss cuz they'll be here, or somewhere, when you finally catch up with the wheels of time)...

it's just too much fun for me to sit down after work, or before, or after softball or parties or game nights or whatever i do the other 95% of the time i am not writing, and babble on a bit as if multitudes of millions are waiting with baited breath for my next literary gem... and if a literary gem happens to be carved out of seventy billion words, cool, some lucky fool like us will find it and dance with glee over whatever it is, cuz that's what we do, ya know...

kittens and puppies and infants get it, even if they can't read...

so another fine day at work with fun and frolic cuz i have that autonomy and a few key bits get done and everybody's happy... my office looks like that guy in the basement of office space (really ought to clean it up, aye?) and we're all having fun (well, i am, it may take a while for the other humans to catch up)... the babbler is running around kicking all the words out of my head and so here i am waiting for dinner to cook and being a being without a tv, the music plays and until next i spit a few words into this box to inspire a smile (someday, you'll see), i say hello world, how ya doing?... yea, thereal in the house...

so, how ya? :)

lol lam :)

well i suppose not (with a capital k, aye?), but it sure was exciting while the moment lasted (ah, the babbler dreams of the time to wander aimlessly through the fields and valleys and mountain peaks and alternative universes and other oddities of the mind of the author to bask in the ambiance and warm in the sunshine and bathe in the rain and dance with the flowers and rocks and molecular structures and ethereal ethers and so on and all that and what a wonderful world it would be {for the babbler, at least} if only... ahhhh, sigh... and the most naturally sweetly peaceful giggle too)...

guess you had to be there lol lam :)

this body, bringing it back to the physical moments, so severely could benefit from a shower... so that is where i shall be very shortly after this update here in the bowels of thereal... waking naturally for the first time in ages, though it may have been the bladder, there was no call to lay back down and a gentle call to come visit the web and for almost two hours i wandered wikipedia and other sites exploring music (or more specifically, warped memories and assorted side shows and as the third song or cd in any collection seems to have a more profound impact on the collection than most others, so did the gorillaz, putting my in mind of a little radiohead, and on through the still more ethereal moody blues and beyond to others... but maybe you hat to be there for that too, aye?)...

morning laughter at everything and anything for no apparent reason feels so wonderful... i hope you find some too today :)

sleepy puppy

curling up in a ball in my mind (so wanting to in the body too) and could so easily slide off into deep la la land, but there's a game night to be hosting (and there are two spots left cuz two people dropped out late, so come on over to deltona, ok?... call me for directions) and a game to be found at the toys r us on the way and so i'm gonna consume some starbucks frappucchinos and wake the mind and body up artificially this time cuz, after all, i'd rather be playing with people than sleeping alone, even when i am in this sort of sleepy puppy curl up and cuddle-me mood...

it was a long day with the corporate auditor and the lack of cooperation from my fellow directors and their subordinates was way too evident to the auditor, but being that i am such a swell guy and the auditor naturally wanted to give me a good report, the waves might be minimal (when a tsunami might help, but hey, it's the challenge i took on knowing the dysfunctional family i was becoming part of when i took the big chair)...

and now it's some caffeine and sugar and off to make (and buy) more fun and games in deltona... i hope you are having fun too... see you later :)

speeding bullets don't lie

oh gee, this blog whenever there's a moment thing does not allow me to advertise my specific requests and please and desires and such and such very well, does it?... i mean, before anybody can read my heart felt plea for some serious interior decorating assistance and advice and such, the entry is gone into the archives and nobody saw...

sigh...

life really does move way too fast, doesn't it?... well, that's the title reference, anyway, though i know it could have been much more dramatically morbid even, just the speed of life seems faster than a speeding bullet sometimes, metaphorically speaking... or writing, to be precise... and so, a day full of doing stuff at work, number crunching, emailing, training assistants, thinking about projects and not so much working on the stuff due on monday... but i'm a bit ahead of schedule, or at least i was when the day started, so hope remains a big smile... or something like that...

and home, to this desperately needing interior decorating assistance space (did you dee, did you see?, cooking up some eggplant parm and spaghetti and relaxing with the music and the pleasures of privacy and the light fluffy clouds of the lonelies (they get that way sometimes, which is good, cuz they can be such a drag at other times)... it is good to enjoy me by myself (of course that's just my opinion and i may be wrong, but you know what?... nobody can ever prove it (only i can see through my eyes... the silver lining behind the clouds, i just wear it out in front of mind sometimes, ya see?), nyuk :)

if only everybody enjoyed life like this, what a wonderful world it would be... stupid humans (just had to, giggling all the way :)

another win

go team!... and the monday night team, aka put a glove on it is now 2-2 on the season as we beat a team that is now 0-4... best of all, we had fun doing it and i didn't hurt near as bad as yesterday or the day before (though i still am fielding poorly cuz turning the torso just isn't happening well at the moment)... the pills are apparently helping cuz the books say at least a few weeks with rest and i am far from resting and feeling better already... after the game, we went to the wing house, home of some very appealing petite bodies for twenty year olds, and shifting subjects toward more realism, since i didn't eat anything but granola bars and some nestle's crunch all day, i ordered food and we shared beers... i still don't know why people learn to like the taste of beer, but then, i drank some too...

the day at work was another day at work... papers seem to fly past me as fast as I can read, write a few words, and sign my name these days... and since it's the beginning of another month, number crunching begins again and reports are due way before any reasonable deadline cuz the people who want the reports have little or no idea what goes into producing the reports, but for better or worse that is their ignorance and relative worthlessness, not mine...

i wrote to my sunday softball team... everyone was giving each other pep talks in email, so i let the babbler loose on them... you can see what happened over at real time... everybody's so emotional lately (oh, bad self-mocker, why doest thou sock-it-to-me... rowen and martin, eat your heart out... artie johnson too... henry gibson was jack handey before jack was born... did you vote yet?... always wear your best underwear, you never know who may see it... or why)...

so what's going on in your world today? :)