Tuesday, December 1, 2020

Still Wide Awake

On the first of may (what can I say?... strangers, friends, it never ends). Did you notice I was gone? Did you find me somewhere else? Do you even know my name? Has this all just been a game? How long have you been on this journey? Time is relative, in case you forgot or didn't get the internal memo, or emo, for that matter. Are we doing this alone? Don't you know that you don't need to always be on your own? What?

Something change? Did you notice a story keeps growing on the right? Not to mention the entries that keep slipping in behind this one, in real time, just cuz love never ends, like Abbey Road's going to #1 after 50 years, Sgt Pepper would be so proud.

and in the end
the love you save
is equal to
the love you gave

...or something like that What? You want a theme song? Here's a theme song.


The real theme song. You want real? Really? You may have missed it (if it ever began).


Awake: Real true real, this blog actually ended years ago, shortly after Happiness died. He was such a beautiful soul, though there is no absolute end until the fingers can no longer type, so entries appear here and there as if they've always were, like the song that never ends, somewhere, and I will likely update this entry again and again, adding links, for posterity, for the depths, or doubts, even, and just for the fun of it, or whatever, and you can make of each one and all of them and everything as you see fit, or as Wesley said, as you wish (you too lol).

I mean, do you really want to know? :)

The fact is, so few do. Maybe no one does. Are you no one? Ah, we play with words to create hope where there may otherwise be none. Are you none?

If you came from TheReal(TM) you went (e)thereal (you're looking at it) but the babbler struck again after a while, so now... if you still want to know me and this life there is another place to go (see below) where I tear myself apart to censor myself to respect others fears while still doing my best to live my dream of finding the one and sharing everything completely openly and honestly... still here too. Still exposed.

I am here now in this new blog (and more, so much more), in case it matters. Narf.

No need to cry. I mean, just cuz of all the lonesome, ya know? If you remember. Narf.

You know narf is also a sigh, right?

Narf :)

PS... Hey blog family - you still matter to me :)

PPS... I am still awake, and still the same, even as everything constantly changes.

PPPS... Hey, what are all those links to the right there? (asked nonchalantly) lol :)

PPPPS... Maybe I'm a mazed lol. :)

PPPPPS... Write more, they say, and I do, almost every day, and then some. more? LOL you don't now the half of it. The question is, do you really want to? :)

Narf (yes, again) :)


Epilogue 1... the end is only the end if you believe in endings :)

Catch up (and know more)

musical distractions

If people had visible signs or meters that told something about them, what would you want it to tell you?

dumb poll (above), smart responders

all the previous poll votes were somehow erased, so, nevermind... ironically or coincidentally or whatever, the results were very close in practical numbers to the results above shown with just three votes, if you understand the mathematics behind that extrapolative reasoning... i will probably remove the poll at some point... it is a ridiculously useless feature...


the thing is, with my tendency to babble and meander and whine and allow distraction to take the lead more often than not, even in this blog that sort of meant to merge brevity with focus like some bloggers do, searching for key words does not always lead to specific information about the subject of that key word... but... here is a start at an easy way to search for key words in this blog... use the search box at the top of the blog to search for words not listed here... if ya wanna, that is... and feel free to suggest words to add to this search shortcut section... click on the words below :)

WORK ... JOB ... MUSIC ... LOVE ... SOFTBALL ... KA ... 42 ... LOL ... LAM ... LAA ... ... ...