every post you make

or i make, for that matter... every post i make is a multiple purpose, expressing myself, releasing mental stuff (that allows more space for peace of mind), trying to share something positive with the world, and a call for response, among other things... even as it is all about me sometimes and all for me like a literary orgasm (wait, are you still here?), sometimes i am begging for a little attention, appreciation, and when i write my heart out, praise for the expressions, even if they don't rhyme (but especially when they do)... and i was realizing as i was commenting on a few entries a friend posted, the first she's posted in many weeks, that i am a relatively habitual commenter... and then i thought, geee, i wish i had one... and then i thought, maybe not, cuz i would feel obligated to keep checking and responding and i am kind of a freebird floating wherever the moment takes me and don't particularly like an obligatory schedule anymore (which is why i am so alone, right?)... and then i wondered if i might be that longed for yet kind of uncomfortable obligation for someone else, like do i become a burden of sorts for someone who wants to fly away alone and free?... sheeesh, maybe i think too much, aye?...

meanwhile, back in the real world, work keeps me tied down each day, especially this week as i am on clinical on call (which adds to the possibility of calls as i am always on call anyway) and so far, every night another emergency had me taking a few calls including tonight... which is why i treasure the moments of free falling or flying i can find in each day... even alone, if that's how it must be (la la la :)

really need to exercise more though... hope life is good for you :)