so many entries

of the many thousands of entries (almost 6,200 in this blog alone) in the hundreds of blogs out there on the internet and many hundreds of paper books written over the years that make up what we call the written gardens, just under a hundred and fiften (150) entries are somehow selected and linked on the right sidebar and while much thought and careful reasoning went into the selection and linking of each one, it could just be as random as wanting to share more at the time or feeling like i wrote something i want to share or both converging in the moment of linkage... hundreds of other entries are no doubt more representative, more important to me, and much more worth reading... someday i hope learned editors select those, but for now, for whatever they are worth, you do have the entries i selected, however semi-randonly, linked to the right in a column of links that roll well down the page below this entry...

i mean, you might consider the last few to be quite revealing and then, they simply might be a passing mood... like the smile on a baby's face, is it gas or genuine emotional recognition leading to happiness... sometimes i wonder if anyone will ever invest the time and effort it would take to truly get to know me... less and less i believe it will happen and that used to ache with sadness because i wanted to share so much, i wanted to be known so much, but less and less do i take the possibility that it will happen seriously so more and more i accept it will not and the sadness mellows into acceptance... independent happiness remains, as does the longing to share it...

maybe you understand, or want to... your call...

narf :)