no profoundly deep reason for the sigh in the title this time, just the life that passes all around me while i sit back and watch the wheels go round and round (which is my dream job, by the way... the only other sighs are not being able to do this for the rest of life {which is not living in the moment which is something i strive not to do} and not having someone to share everything with {which is living in the moment because all we can share is the moment}, so it's really exciting to be able to do this again for an extended period for the third time in this life (two years in the 70s, most of eight years in the 90s, and again this past year) and how challenging people make just about everything for themselves... why so addicted to drama and stress and conflict?... it becomes a which came first question... did the media (news and entertainment) create the culture and mind set that is addicted to drama, violence, and stress or is human nature just wired that way and the media reflects it... sigh, yeah, whatever...
meanwhile, around this space, jackson came home to work for an hour or two and start some laundry before going to see her next client and then she'll be home to watch the stanley cup here and finish her laundry... she was at sanford's yesterday so tonight will be her only night home this week other than monday... tomorrow she's going out of town to a training seminar until friday and then she's gonna stay at sanford's until sunday so i will have four days and three nights all by myself around here (tomorrow sanford will pick up happiness and he'll spend the weekend there too which is good cuz he misses her dearly when she's gone)... and me, refocus on the speed walking and working back to jogging, right?... i love the solitary time without any responsibilities at all, though i am happy jackson lives here cuz i love her and it would get quite lonely all by myself all the time... when she finally moves away i will need to find another roommate cuz rent, electric, cable, phone and all that is really draining me paying it all by myself (especially without income)... that reminds me to note in memory (and here too cuz writing it enhances memory which is just one more reason i write) that the friend who had the free passes to the movies lives in a community that charges $200 less than here for a two bedroom so i would check that place out when the time comes... ah, see, i am thinking about the future, no wonder the title came back...
well, now that that's done, it's time to return to the now and enjoy the moments... hope you find your way into your moments and enjoy them as much as possible... anything is possible in the mind, after all... i know it and prove it to myself all the time (i dreamed i was living with amy just a night or two ago, after all... don't think i mentioned that, did i... i'll just glance coyly toward the ceiling now)... anything is possible in the mind... believe it and you will know it too :)
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