there's always hope

the hope of the writing, of the sharing, through all the babble - the hope that someone enjoys it. someone understands why i do it and even, someone will someday find it irresistible... even the repetition... all this silliness, irreverence, double entendre... all the distractions and fantasies, the faux-shock value self-mockery and shock value attention seeking and the stuff of wet dreams, and even the goofy gushy mushy romantic gazes... somebody loves it... and that's hope, that somebody, the one who's gonna come along and play along and sing along and dance along and wonder along with me someday... somewhere... there's a place for us...

wait, lol lam after hold me accountable in the previous entry?... and does anyone ask (wanting the answer) accountable to what?... to being, seriously being who we are...

and it's not just a movie, not just a fantasy, not just a blog, once it is shared by someone... it is a life, actualized, a life shared, a life made real... this is the one most serious... this is the bottom line behind all the writing and uploading of entries, the bottom line behind all the words, the hope of sharing...

and the hope of love...