must improve diet

not playing and not moving the arm was a very good move (or not move, aye?)... i shall continue this for a few days and home for the best... not eating until after the game was not a good move... the neck started hurting and the head and i was so hungry we stopped for subs and i bought four... my intention was to buy subs to eat for the next few days so i would not have to cook or prepare and could eat pretty much with one hand... but it was too late and now i have neck ache and head ache and general blah from dramatic sugar level changes and caffeine and chocolate and sugar withdrawals and i really must improve the diet... eat more smaller meals and cut back on the caffeine, sugar, and ... well, caffeine and sugar... and moderate chocolate :)

i am drinking some coffee that was left in the pot since friday... or maybe thursday... it is helping with the headache, as are the three aspirins, but not so much with the neck ache... i think the neck ache is partly muscular, but may also be food related, like maybe thyroid reacting to the chemical changes (sugar, especially)... that is just theory, of course, but i probably should get a check up on it anyway when i finally get a new job that has health insurance... until then, i will hope, like many millions of others dying in the richest country in the world because the medical industrial complex is as greedy and corrupt as the military industrial complex...

there is no humane in humanity... which is why is see all religions as mostly hypocrisy... which is why most people use the defense of being "offended" when i speak my mind... which is why trying to talk rationally with most people is a waste of time... which is why i do not talk about many things with most people... which is why i am sometimes more alone than i would like to be... which is why i am sometimes lonely... which is why i sometimes whine... which is why i sometimes do not eat well... which is why i must improve my diet...

and sigh...

narf :}